My father woke me up at 11:15 am and asked me to clean the car. I just gave a small dusting and he left. He had to get a routine servicing done to the vehicle. At the authorized service center there were too many cars so he just got some new engine oil filled and changed one of the old headlamps at a local garage.
We had to attend a marriage function in the evening. It was the marriage of a distant relative's daughter. The bride's father also happens to be a good friend of my father and also my uncle. There I got to meet my cousins and we spoke about how we are going to enjoy our cousin sister's wedding in December.
After my father left, I slept for some more time. But before that I switched on my computer, spent some time there and slept. The night before, I had a very disturbed sleep. I had to somehow make myself fresh. I find sleep as the biggest problem. My mind works the best in the nights. There are several things that could be done only during the day time - things like meeting people and going out. But sleep comes in between all this. I find no time but still I have to sacrifice other things. Today I wanted to reach my grandmother's house early and study for sometime. I could reach only at 3:30 pm. Already my aunt and cousin sister had arrived and I couldn't study. There was a lot of disturbance. I was angry with myself ... my sleep actually.
I have been taking coffee daily. This is even effecting my weight. Coffee reduces appetite. But I take it because I like it and to beat sleep. The second reason is the chief reason. And even the coming winter is a threat to me - it makes me sleep more. I don't feel like getting out of the blanket!
My cousin sister is in engineering 1st year at Shaadan College, Khairtabad. She was telling me about her college and the things she has been studying, liking and not liking! I told her the things I have seen or felt throughout my time in engineering. She said she is studying daily after coming home. I found it the best thing she is doing. The timings of her college are unusual - 7:30 am to 1:30 pm. She likes them. Then just before leaving I had a debate kind of thing with my 2 aunts and mother. The topic was 'girls wearing scarfs and burqa'. I was 'for'. Though they were not against it but there was something they were not liking and were not ready to accept it. I can say I won but it is my religion that won. I had the rules by my side.
The debate started when when my aunt told me about a 2nd cousin of mine who was asked to were a 'burqa' by her neighbor. She had replied 'I wear clothes that cover my body completely so why should I wear it?' She is from my college studying in 1st year. Even my sister doesn't wear a scarf so indirectly I wanted to tell her that she has to wear it. I am sure she got my point.
They all still seem to have a doubt with what 'hijaab' means. To be frank even I don't know the exact meaning but very soon I will find it out and let them know. And I will also let them know about the punishments they may face if they avoid it and also the ones they will see if they deny the truth. I will keep everything as polite as possible but I will get to them my word. My sister has got the best of education and I am sure she will understand the things and take my words and my intention positively. What I am trying to do is for her good. I don't care what other girls (strangers to me) do. She is my sister and she needs to do the things right.
My youngest aunt (my mother's youngest sister) was telling me about an incident where my uncle was standing somewhere with his friend when some girl in a 'burqa' and scarf winked her eye at my uncle's friend. My immediate response was 'why were they looking at the girl?' My mother prompted 'boys are like this!' I continued 'and that's the reason it is necessary that girls wear scarf and 'burqa'.
Sometime later my mother said that I have grown up now. I was expecting something like this especially after that night when I spoke to both my parents about me and told them several things - of course about me.
Saturday, November 11, 2006
Friday, November 10, 2006
I wish I could write a name here
I got my hall ticket today and it was a relief to know that I will be writing the exams at Vasavi College and not MVSR. MVSR is around 30 kilometers from my house and it would have been a tiring task for me if I had to go there for those 5 days.
I was in the college till 3 pm and we did absolutely nothing. I reached home, had some snacks and slept only to wake up at 7 pm. Yesterday night I didn't have a good sleep. There was some function going on in the neighborhood; there was a lot of disturbance.
Today my mother came home late. At 8:15 pm. She was late by 45 minutes considering the expected time. She cooked something as fast as she could. But it was very tasty - 'khidchi' and 'tamatey ki chatni'. We also had 'papad' and 'andey ka cheela' with that! I had more than 2 eggs since morning today! I intend to continue this.
Tomorrow, Saturday, I will be going to my grandparents' house again. I will also finish some studying I had planned. InshAllah.
I was in the college till 3 pm and we did absolutely nothing. I reached home, had some snacks and slept only to wake up at 7 pm. Yesterday night I didn't have a good sleep. There was some function going on in the neighborhood; there was a lot of disturbance.
Today my mother came home late. At 8:15 pm. She was late by 45 minutes considering the expected time. She cooked something as fast as she could. But it was very tasty - 'khidchi' and 'tamatey ki chatni'. We also had 'papad' and 'andey ka cheela' with that! I had more than 2 eggs since morning today! I intend to continue this.
Tomorrow, Saturday, I will be going to my grandparents' house again. I will also finish some studying I had planned. InshAllah.
Thursday, November 9, 2006
Thursday
I came back home at 7 pm. I had been to my grandparents' house. It was a day well spent. I studied for sometime and it was more than just happiness; it was satisfaction. I ate a lot of things too. My aunt and my grandmother gave me so many snacks that I had to have my lunch at 5:30 pm. Even that was heavy.
My grandfather was very quiet today. I don't know why but he was some sort of depressed. He was too soft with his talk and everything he said was very touching. I am used to seeing him shouting and angry, and I like him that way. I felt very bad today. I pray to Allah that my grandfather always remains happy. I beg Allah for his long life. My grandfather's heart is working at a mere 28% functionality. He can't be operated for anything as he is too old and weak. So, there can be no pacemaker.
Today I had a wonderful chat with my sister. The best part was that ... aa, there were many best parts actually! She will be here shortly and of course we have the big thing in December. I am waiting for all that.
My grandfather was very quiet today. I don't know why but he was some sort of depressed. He was too soft with his talk and everything he said was very touching. I am used to seeing him shouting and angry, and I like him that way. I felt very bad today. I pray to Allah that my grandfather always remains happy. I beg Allah for his long life. My grandfather's heart is working at a mere 28% functionality. He can't be operated for anything as he is too old and weak. So, there can be no pacemaker.
Today I had a wonderful chat with my sister. The best part was that ... aa, there were many best parts actually! She will be here shortly and of course we have the big thing in December. I am waiting for all that.
Wednesday, November 8, 2006
More Pristine ... But I am hiding something!
Today I wrote another poem for Gridlocked. This time I liked it myself. I just did it. When I first thought of writing I didn't know what I was going to write. I had a head ache and still I continued and I got this thing. I have named it as 'My Moon'. I think it suits it ... still it should make no difference.
Today I had decided that I won't turn onthe computer unless I study for sometime. I did study but it was for a very short time. But I am somehow happy that I had started, but I am not satisfied. The poem still remains the best thing I did today. Tomorrow I will most probably be going to my grandparents' house and there I will try to study for a longer period of time. I don't know why I have lost the worry of getting less marks. My mother worries more than me.
It was still a fine day even though I did nothing much. I was feeling satisfied with other things but now I find my heart beat a little faster. This happens sometimes - with no reason I can understand. I have once read in some book the method to handle a problem - accept that you have a problem, try to find a solution by analysing it, and don't thing of the problem while implementing the solution. Here, for me, now, I don't even know if I have a problem..... I know I am a bit crazy now. Things are not clear!
Today in the evening I filled the drinking water. It was raining and I still had to do it. My mother had asked for it 2 days back and I forgot. If I had forgotten it even today, then I would have got the work of purchasing drinking water from some store. That is something I don't like doing. ... There was a lot of problem with filling today. I had to hold the umbrella between my shoulder and neck and use my hands. It was tiring.
Today I had decided that I won't turn onthe computer unless I study for sometime. I did study but it was for a very short time. But I am somehow happy that I had started, but I am not satisfied. The poem still remains the best thing I did today. Tomorrow I will most probably be going to my grandparents' house and there I will try to study for a longer period of time. I don't know why I have lost the worry of getting less marks. My mother worries more than me.
It was still a fine day even though I did nothing much. I was feeling satisfied with other things but now I find my heart beat a little faster. This happens sometimes - with no reason I can understand. I have once read in some book the method to handle a problem - accept that you have a problem, try to find a solution by analysing it, and don't thing of the problem while implementing the solution. Here, for me, now, I don't even know if I have a problem..... I know I am a bit crazy now. Things are not clear!
Today in the evening I filled the drinking water. It was raining and I still had to do it. My mother had asked for it 2 days back and I forgot. If I had forgotten it even today, then I would have got the work of purchasing drinking water from some store. That is something I don't like doing. ... There was a lot of problem with filling today. I had to hold the umbrella between my shoulder and neck and use my hands. It was tiring.
Tuesday, November 7, 2006
Pristine feelings
Yesterday I didn't update; I was lazy enough to type nothing even when I was chatting with my friends. I didn't do anything today. Woke up early - at 9:40 am :D, had my break fast - a very lite one, and slept again. Evening was a bit fine as I did some household works and washed my clothes. I still have a lot many clothes to wash.
My friend who was asking me to come to the college himself didn't go. If I had agreed with him and gone to the college, perhaps I would have lost my head. Alhamdulillah everything is fine :) . I hope everything remains fine everytime ... he is my friend and no matter how much he bugs or troubles me, he will remain my friend. But if I behave with him the way he does with me, I am sure he would like to stay away from me. I won't let him do that either!
The last time he stopped talking to me for a few days I was a bit upset and was feeling bad until another friend told me "he is not your girlfriend that you should feel bad if he doesn't talk to you". I am probably too sentimental when people get angry with me or stop talking to me. This never happens actually; this was the first time and it was with him. InshAllah it will remain as the last time too. I hope he reads this post!!!
My cousin sister had created a profile on orkut a few days back. She has deleted it now. She was getting a lot of crap in her scrap book. She was already warned by my elder cousin brother that orkut was not a good place. She came, she saw it, and she went! I felt bad when I saw that she was no more on orkut, but later when I thought about it, I felt proud that she left!
There as only one scrap she wrote to me. She did it because I had written a testimonial for her. In her scrap she praised me. I like being praised; of course, like everybody. But I try not to believe whenever I hear anything nice about me. If I believe, then I will probably stop doing everything I do to become nice!
In the same scrap she said that I cherish every moment I spend with my loved ones. I realized it only after she said that. She was right. That's probably the reason I say things like "I enjoyed being with my friends today", "it was a fine day with friends", "I had a great time with my friends today". Yes, I cherish every second I spend with people around me, with life around me!
My friend who was asking me to come to the college himself didn't go. If I had agreed with him and gone to the college, perhaps I would have lost my head. Alhamdulillah everything is fine :) . I hope everything remains fine everytime ... he is my friend and no matter how much he bugs or troubles me, he will remain my friend. But if I behave with him the way he does with me, I am sure he would like to stay away from me. I won't let him do that either!
The last time he stopped talking to me for a few days I was a bit upset and was feeling bad until another friend told me "he is not your girlfriend that you should feel bad if he doesn't talk to you". I am probably too sentimental when people get angry with me or stop talking to me. This never happens actually; this was the first time and it was with him. InshAllah it will remain as the last time too. I hope he reads this post!!!
My cousin sister had created a profile on orkut a few days back. She has deleted it now. She was getting a lot of crap in her scrap book. She was already warned by my elder cousin brother that orkut was not a good place. She came, she saw it, and she went! I felt bad when I saw that she was no more on orkut, but later when I thought about it, I felt proud that she left!
There as only one scrap she wrote to me. She did it because I had written a testimonial for her. In her scrap she praised me. I like being praised; of course, like everybody. But I try not to believe whenever I hear anything nice about me. If I believe, then I will probably stop doing everything I do to become nice!
In the same scrap she said that I cherish every moment I spend with my loved ones. I realized it only after she said that. She was right. That's probably the reason I say things like "I enjoyed being with my friends today", "it was a fine day with friends", "I had a great time with my friends today". Yes, I cherish every second I spend with people around me, with life around me!
Sunday, November 5, 2006
I don't like plans and words that change often. I don't like myself if I do anything like that.
I had the mood so thought of writing again today. Usually it so happens that I have to push myself to write and rarely I open blogger and start typing with no effort but with enthusiasm. But now, I don't know what to write.
Even at 5:30 pm I didn't know I had to attend a function in the evening. Two of my father's cousins were blessed with a girl and a boy so they wanted to treat everybody with dinner! It was a grand party at a function hall on the ring-road. After a long time I got to meet 2 of my cousins I couldn't meet even in Ied. We had to exchange a few things - respective possessions we had kept for quiet some time now. I had to return a novel and the analog controller of Playstation.
I kept my computer open from 11:45 am to 5:30 pm today. I was online but invisible for most of the time. I saw a few people coming online and leaving. I listened to a lot of music, read a few things, and wrote a little. I didn.t know how time passed by. I even created a banner for this blog. It was a tiring task.
For the banner I first had to select pictures in Picasa and create collage for them. I did a lot of experimenting with this as the order of the pics was not how I wanted it to be. Somehow after a lot of shuffling I made 3 such collages! Now I had to think how to get them appear in a single pic as a banner - wide but short in length. I thought of using ms-paint directly but that wasn't feasible. I even considered installing Adobe Photoshop. That seemed to be a bad option. I have many other photo editing softwares but I was not in a mood to install anything and do more trials with new softwares. I opened the 3 collages in 3 different windows, resized the pics and cascaded the windows in such a way that they are all aligned in a single line like a single wide picture. I took a snap of this using 'prt scr' key and used ms-paint to edit the resultant picture. Before that I had to remove the useless pats in ms-picture manager. A look at the banner will show that it is a combination of 3 parts.
I worked on the pic till I was satisfied. I first considered hosting it on any of my IDs on google pages but I did it on photobucket.com as it help in getting a direct html tag.I used the html code and tried it into the template code of my blog. It took me 30 minutes to put it into the right place and get what I had desired to see my blog as. I learnt a lot during all this process. If I have to anything of that kind now, it will hardly take any time. Though this barely seems to be something big, I am glad I did it. It is a small thing. But I did it myself and any person, even an expert, won't understand at once how I did it. May be he can do it using some other way, or using some other software. I did it using a photo management software - Picasa and the snapshot feature of windows. It was time consuming as I was doing it for the first time.
After a long time I had a talk on phone with my cousin who lives in Gulbarga. It was naughty talk actually. I asked him to come here at the earliest but he won't be here before December when his sister is getting married. My cousin from Kyrgyzstan is also expected to come here. We will be going to Guntur to attend the reception.
My friends had asked me to come to the college on Monday at 9:30 am. Even today when a friend came to meet me at home, he said we will be meeting in the college again tomorrow. But just sometime back I got some offliners from another friend informing about 2 friends who won't be coming. He has probably spoken to them so I trust him with that. But alongside he said that 2 more won't come. I am sure he is just guessing that. He does that usually... too often. In any case I will call the friend who came to my house today and ask him to come. Its enough for me that at least one person is there with me. I don't want to stay home all alone. I don't like plans and words that change often. I don't like myself if I do anything like that.
Even at 5:30 pm I didn't know I had to attend a function in the evening. Two of my father's cousins were blessed with a girl and a boy so they wanted to treat everybody with dinner! It was a grand party at a function hall on the ring-road. After a long time I got to meet 2 of my cousins I couldn't meet even in Ied. We had to exchange a few things - respective possessions we had kept for quiet some time now. I had to return a novel and the analog controller of Playstation.
I kept my computer open from 11:45 am to 5:30 pm today. I was online but invisible for most of the time. I saw a few people coming online and leaving. I listened to a lot of music, read a few things, and wrote a little. I didn.t know how time passed by. I even created a banner for this blog. It was a tiring task.
For the banner I first had to select pictures in Picasa and create collage for them. I did a lot of experimenting with this as the order of the pics was not how I wanted it to be. Somehow after a lot of shuffling I made 3 such collages! Now I had to think how to get them appear in a single pic as a banner - wide but short in length. I thought of using ms-paint directly but that wasn't feasible. I even considered installing Adobe Photoshop. That seemed to be a bad option. I have many other photo editing softwares but I was not in a mood to install anything and do more trials with new softwares. I opened the 3 collages in 3 different windows, resized the pics and cascaded the windows in such a way that they are all aligned in a single line like a single wide picture. I took a snap of this using 'prt scr' key and used ms-paint to edit the resultant picture. Before that I had to remove the useless pats in ms-picture manager. A look at the banner will show that it is a combination of 3 parts.
I worked on the pic till I was satisfied. I first considered hosting it on any of my IDs on google pages but I did it on photobucket.com as it help in getting a direct html tag.I used the html code and tried it into the template code of my blog. It took me 30 minutes to put it into the right place and get what I had desired to see my blog as. I learnt a lot during all this process. If I have to anything of that kind now, it will hardly take any time. Though this barely seems to be something big, I am glad I did it. It is a small thing. But I did it myself and any person, even an expert, won't understand at once how I did it. May be he can do it using some other way, or using some other software. I did it using a photo management software - Picasa and the snapshot feature of windows. It was time consuming as I was doing it for the first time.
After a long time I had a talk on phone with my cousin who lives in Gulbarga. It was naughty talk actually. I asked him to come here at the earliest but he won't be here before December when his sister is getting married. My cousin from Kyrgyzstan is also expected to come here. We will be going to Guntur to attend the reception.
My friends had asked me to come to the college on Monday at 9:30 am. Even today when a friend came to meet me at home, he said we will be meeting in the college again tomorrow. But just sometime back I got some offliners from another friend informing about 2 friends who won't be coming. He has probably spoken to them so I trust him with that. But alongside he said that 2 more won't come. I am sure he is just guessing that. He does that usually... too often. In any case I will call the friend who came to my house today and ask him to come. Its enough for me that at least one person is there with me. I don't want to stay home all alone. I don't like plans and words that change often. I don't like myself if I do anything like that.
Simple Crap ... Interesting only for me
1. Are you photogenic? Its usually my dressing that makes the difference; even the beard some times :DD
2. What time do you go to bed? hehe ... 1am to like 3am
3. What was the last thing you did before this? read some blogs by unknown people untill found this questionnair!!!
4. Who's the one you always meet the most? My father I guess.
5. Who's the person you'll call if you need help? I never call anybody. I try to find somebody online ... if that doesn't happen, I sleep.
6. What's on your mind right now? my coming external exams, CAT and ... aawe!
7. Which do you prefer? American idol or Idol idol? Nothing.
8. With whom do you have the most fun? With my brother and few very hilarious friends.
9. Which movie do you wanna watch now? Don ... for the second time.
10. When was the last time you went out? Who did you go out with?YESTERDAY! With 5 of my friends to have grilled chicken.
11. What do you hate the most for now? Not being able to write anyting for my blogs ... and ... !
12. What do you do everyday besides eat and sleep? spend time on computer, listen to music, attempt to study, try reading some book(its always there on my bed) and.. go out.
13. Colors that make you happy ? Blue and green .. white
14. Favourite thing/s in your room ? nothing execpt my closet
15. Miss someone? yes... like always
16. Plan to buy something? more clothes
17. Are you satisfied with your life now? yeah
18. Do you like seafood? a lot ... apollo fish, fried prawns ... ah! my mouth's watering.
19. Breakfast or dinner? brunch :))
20. Do you like chocolates? Yes ... pure, luscious chocloate that is about to melt!
21. Do you have a laptop? nopes :(
22. What's your favorite fast food? Shawarma
23. Cats or dogs? cats ... I hate dogs. They are such 'dogs'... uh! 'kuttey'!!!! :D
24. Salty or sweet? sweet :) (wink!)
25. Urban or rural? urban ... definitely. I don't know how people can live anywhere else.
26. Is kissing normal for your age? No
27. Are you athletic? nooo, I used to be. I lost that somewhere!!!
28. Favourite bands for now? not any ... just some singles
30. What do you wear to bed? whatever I wear at home in the evening.
31. Ever had a crush on a teacher in high school? noo ... cheee ..!
32. Coke or pepsi?christina aguilera or britney spears? pepsi ... who are they?
33. Sugar or spice? both ...
34. Can you use chopsticks? never tried.
35. Do you care about getting good grades? not really ... I uesd to; a lot. I am worried about CAT
36. Have you ever fallen asleep in class? Many times ... I sit in the first bench!
37. Do you ask your parents for money or do a job? Ask my parents. But I don't remember when it was the last time I had to ask. They give me even before I do.
38. Is your mom strict? no, she is not. she would have been if she were not working.
39. Do your parents give you enough privacy? yes they do.
40. Do your parents trust you? my father will believe in anything I say. mother is a bit moody!
41. Would you ever wanna lose your best friends? I don't even want to loose an acquaintance.
42. Does your best friend get on your nerves? too often.
43. Do you make friends quickly? No, not really. I am a bit anti-social I guess!
44. Do you tell your mom everything? Usually ... almost to father!
45. What do you and your parents fight about most? Smoking ... my father smokes
46. If you love someone and she rejected you, what would you do to her? start planning a murder :D hehe. nay.., I am kidding. I won't do a thing :((
47. Can you sing or rap? none
48. If you had one wish , who would you make your wife for life? I have not been given that wish till now ... I am 19!
2. What time do you go to bed? hehe ... 1am to like 3am
3. What was the last thing you did before this? read some blogs by unknown people untill found this questionnair!!!
4. Who's the one you always meet the most? My father I guess.
5. Who's the person you'll call if you need help? I never call anybody. I try to find somebody online ... if that doesn't happen, I sleep.
6. What's on your mind right now? my coming external exams, CAT and ... aawe!
7. Which do you prefer? American idol or Idol idol? Nothing.
8. With whom do you have the most fun? With my brother and few very hilarious friends.
9. Which movie do you wanna watch now? Don ... for the second time.
10. When was the last time you went out? Who did you go out with?YESTERDAY! With 5 of my friends to have grilled chicken.
11. What do you hate the most for now? Not being able to write anyting for my blogs ... and ... !
12. What do you do everyday besides eat and sleep? spend time on computer, listen to music, attempt to study, try reading some book(its always there on my bed) and.. go out.
13. Colors that make you happy ? Blue and green .. white
14. Favourite thing/s in your room ? nothing execpt my closet
15. Miss someone? yes... like always
16. Plan to buy something? more clothes
17. Are you satisfied with your life now? yeah
18. Do you like seafood? a lot ... apollo fish, fried prawns ... ah! my mouth's watering.
19. Breakfast or dinner? brunch :))
20. Do you like chocolates? Yes ... pure, luscious chocloate that is about to melt!
21. Do you have a laptop? nopes :(
22. What's your favorite fast food? Shawarma
23. Cats or dogs? cats ... I hate dogs. They are such 'dogs'... uh! 'kuttey'!!!! :D
24. Salty or sweet? sweet :) (wink!)
25. Urban or rural? urban ... definitely. I don't know how people can live anywhere else.
26. Is kissing normal for your age? No
27. Are you athletic? nooo, I used to be. I lost that somewhere!!!
28. Favourite bands for now? not any ... just some singles
30. What do you wear to bed? whatever I wear at home in the evening.
31. Ever had a crush on a teacher in high school? noo ... cheee ..!
32. Coke or pepsi?christina aguilera or britney spears? pepsi ... who are they?
33. Sugar or spice? both ...
34. Can you use chopsticks? never tried.
35. Do you care about getting good grades? not really ... I uesd to; a lot. I am worried about CAT
36. Have you ever fallen asleep in class? Many times ... I sit in the first bench!
37. Do you ask your parents for money or do a job? Ask my parents. But I don't remember when it was the last time I had to ask. They give me even before I do.
38. Is your mom strict? no, she is not. she would have been if she were not working.
39. Do your parents give you enough privacy? yes they do.
40. Do your parents trust you? my father will believe in anything I say. mother is a bit moody!
41. Would you ever wanna lose your best friends? I don't even want to loose an acquaintance.
42. Does your best friend get on your nerves? too often.
43. Do you make friends quickly? No, not really. I am a bit anti-social I guess!
44. Do you tell your mom everything? Usually ... almost to father!
45. What do you and your parents fight about most? Smoking ... my father smokes
46. If you love someone and she rejected you, what would you do to her? start planning a murder :D hehe. nay.., I am kidding. I won't do a thing :((
47. Can you sing or rap? none
48. If you had one wish , who would you make your wife for life? I have not been given that wish till now ... I am 19!
My November
Everytime I felt offended or irritated by a person, I learnt how to stay quite. I don't take the credit for any effort I may be putting to stop myself from getting enraged, I thank Allah for every awareness of my emotions He gave me and also for the knowledge that helps me remain calm. Yesterday I was tested. Perhaps I learned even more. I remained calm.
I was teased by 2 of my closest friends. I didn't mind that. But because they intentionally did it in front of 'some people' so that I am seen by 'them' under such a situation, so that they laugh at me, so that I am a ind of insulted in front of 'them' ... I was angry with a smile on my face. I need to learn something more - to shout back at my friends when they hurt me without thinking of what it may result in. I also need to lear to say 'no', not just to my friends, but to everybody.
Yesterday's lab external was amazing. First I was given a program on triggers. I had not prepared for it so I asked the lecturer for something else. I was asked to create a table for students with their marks in 2 subjects. Then I had to write a PL/SQL program to calculate the total of the marks, average and give grades to the students with respect to their marks. I had to do these updations in the already created table. When I saw the question, I thought I couldn't do it. I somehow started. From nowhere (Alhamdulillah), I thought of using cursors. I wrote the code after thinking a lot. It was signaled as correct by the lecturer. I started the execution and with a little debugging, I ran it successfully. When I opened the table to see if the changes have been made, I was surprised to see I had done it correctly. I couldn't believe I did it. This was the first time I had done such a program in the semister - in the lab external!
The viva was not that great. I was hardly asked anything. A few things on attributes and constraints and a query. The extnal incharge himself was helping. He was the best of the 3 who took viva in these exams. He was friendly and made everybody feel comfortable. To be precise, he had respect for the students.
Later in the evening we went to have Grilled chicken at Kababish. We were 6 people and each of us had half a chicken each. Then I walked from Masab Tank to my grandparents house in Murad Nagar. I did wait for the bus for sometime but I felt I was wasting time so I walked. I took me 25 minutes to reach the place. I liked walking.
Yesterday or I guess it is today, I slept at 2:45 am. Though I was feeling sleepy, I didn't want to sleep. I don't know why! In the morning I woke up at 9:30 am, had some tea, and slept again till a friend woke me up at 11:30 am. I had my breakfast at 1 pm. It was 7 slices of bread with tea. I am fresh now. I have read many articles on the net since then. I updated some old blogs with what Ihave read. I just copied some articles. I will write some shortly now that I can relax till 13th. I do have to read a lot and get myself ready.
I am too relaxed already. Tomorrow I will be going to the college. There is no much reason for that, just have to take my records. And my friends were talking about going to a movie, so may be I will join them - even when I don't feel like going.
November 14th marks the end of one year since I have started my first blog, Flowing Emotions. The first post was something I kept only for a few day then deleted. The rest, everything I posted after that, is still there.
I was teased by 2 of my closest friends. I didn't mind that. But because they intentionally did it in front of 'some people' so that I am seen by 'them' under such a situation, so that they laugh at me, so that I am a ind of insulted in front of 'them' ... I was angry with a smile on my face. I need to learn something more - to shout back at my friends when they hurt me without thinking of what it may result in. I also need to lear to say 'no', not just to my friends, but to everybody.
Yesterday's lab external was amazing. First I was given a program on triggers. I had not prepared for it so I asked the lecturer for something else. I was asked to create a table for students with their marks in 2 subjects. Then I had to write a PL/SQL program to calculate the total of the marks, average and give grades to the students with respect to their marks. I had to do these updations in the already created table. When I saw the question, I thought I couldn't do it. I somehow started. From nowhere (Alhamdulillah), I thought of using cursors. I wrote the code after thinking a lot. It was signaled as correct by the lecturer. I started the execution and with a little debugging, I ran it successfully. When I opened the table to see if the changes have been made, I was surprised to see I had done it correctly. I couldn't believe I did it. This was the first time I had done such a program in the semister - in the lab external!
The viva was not that great. I was hardly asked anything. A few things on attributes and constraints and a query. The extnal incharge himself was helping. He was the best of the 3 who took viva in these exams. He was friendly and made everybody feel comfortable. To be precise, he had respect for the students.
Later in the evening we went to have Grilled chicken at Kababish. We were 6 people and each of us had half a chicken each. Then I walked from Masab Tank to my grandparents house in Murad Nagar. I did wait for the bus for sometime but I felt I was wasting time so I walked. I took me 25 minutes to reach the place. I liked walking.
Yesterday or I guess it is today, I slept at 2:45 am. Though I was feeling sleepy, I didn't want to sleep. I don't know why! In the morning I woke up at 9:30 am, had some tea, and slept again till a friend woke me up at 11:30 am. I had my breakfast at 1 pm. It was 7 slices of bread with tea. I am fresh now. I have read many articles on the net since then. I updated some old blogs with what Ihave read. I just copied some articles. I will write some shortly now that I can relax till 13th. I do have to read a lot and get myself ready.
I am too relaxed already. Tomorrow I will be going to the college. There is no much reason for that, just have to take my records. And my friends were talking about going to a movie, so may be I will join them - even when I don't feel like going.
November 14th marks the end of one year since I have started my first blog, Flowing Emotions. The first post was something I kept only for a few day then deleted. The rest, everything I posted after that, is still there.
Friday, November 3, 2006
I breach my character today... pathetic
We were called inside the lab at 12:30 pm. When I looked at the names of the programs I had to execute, I knew Allah has been too kind with me. There were 2 of them - I had to create 2 waveforms on the CRO. It hardly took any time for me to finish the writing part on the answer script. We then left for the prayers. I came back and did nothing till 2:45 pm. I was waiting for the other 2 students to finish with their work on the CRO.
I got my turn. One of the programs my friends did was not done properly so he was waiting for me so that he can correct his program after I finish with mine. I typed the first program and tried to execute it. The waveform wasn't right. It was a shock to me. I made a few changes and tried again. No luck this time too. I called the sir. He made some changes to the CRO and said there was something wrong with the settings and that now it was fine. I tried my code again. It didn't work.
My friend who was sitting beside me was asking me to finish off my work at the earliest. We hardly had 30 more minutes left and he had to complete his programs. I was confused. I knew I could work on the code and get the required output. But I had to finish it early so that he gets through the exam. I opened the list of programs done previously by other students. I executed the already available 2 programs, showed it to the incharge, got the 'executed' attestation done on my answer scrit and left. My friend came out after sometime.
I came out and told my friends about how bad my viva was and how tensed I was when I had to wait for the CRO and do nothing. I told them that I had cheated.
The last time I did such a nasty thing was in the last semister. Before that it was when I was in my first year of engineering. Before that it was during my school days - 2nd standard. ... I had written the spelling of a word on my hand for a dictation test I was afraid of. Later when I told an aunt about this, she just said to me that it is dangerous to cheat this way as there is always a chance that hands may be checked. I never cheated after that. In no way. Untill I came to engineering.
I am the very person who always used to tell my friends about the importance of integrity. I had also written an article on that. I had always tried to be fair with everything I did. I had condemned every person who cheated. Even when that person was my friend. Just a few days back, during Ramazam, I had told all my friends that it is a sin to cheat. My parents have taught me that it is a grave sin to cheat. The Holy Quran forbids me from doing such a thing.
I don't know why I did it. Perhaps because my friend was waiting. But that does not give me the permission to do it. Integrity has no room for excuses. And, blatantly and foolishly I told about this to my friends and here, now, I am writing about what I had done today. What do I do? How do I repent? I don't even feel like crying with just some exceptions of a few tears in my eyes. I won't forget this all my life. I pray to Allah that I don't repeat such a coward deed.
I got my turn. One of the programs my friends did was not done properly so he was waiting for me so that he can correct his program after I finish with mine. I typed the first program and tried to execute it. The waveform wasn't right. It was a shock to me. I made a few changes and tried again. No luck this time too. I called the sir. He made some changes to the CRO and said there was something wrong with the settings and that now it was fine. I tried my code again. It didn't work.
My friend who was sitting beside me was asking me to finish off my work at the earliest. We hardly had 30 more minutes left and he had to complete his programs. I was confused. I knew I could work on the code and get the required output. But I had to finish it early so that he gets through the exam. I opened the list of programs done previously by other students. I executed the already available 2 programs, showed it to the incharge, got the 'executed' attestation done on my answer scrit and left. My friend came out after sometime.
I came out and told my friends about how bad my viva was and how tensed I was when I had to wait for the CRO and do nothing. I told them that I had cheated.
The last time I did such a nasty thing was in the last semister. Before that it was when I was in my first year of engineering. Before that it was during my school days - 2nd standard. ... I had written the spelling of a word on my hand for a dictation test I was afraid of. Later when I told an aunt about this, she just said to me that it is dangerous to cheat this way as there is always a chance that hands may be checked. I never cheated after that. In no way. Untill I came to engineering.
I am the very person who always used to tell my friends about the importance of integrity. I had also written an article on that. I had always tried to be fair with everything I did. I had condemned every person who cheated. Even when that person was my friend. Just a few days back, during Ramazam, I had told all my friends that it is a sin to cheat. My parents have taught me that it is a grave sin to cheat. The Holy Quran forbids me from doing such a thing.
I don't know why I did it. Perhaps because my friend was waiting. But that does not give me the permission to do it. Integrity has no room for excuses. And, blatantly and foolishly I told about this to my friends and here, now, I am writing about what I had done today. What do I do? How do I repent? I don't even feel like crying with just some exceptions of a few tears in my eyes. I won't forget this all my life. I pray to Allah that I don't repeat such a coward deed.
Thursday, November 2, 2006
It becomes all gloomy when we miss somebody
I did do some serious study for today's Operating Systems Lab External. I got what I deserved. It was fine even though I couldn't execute any of the 2 programs I was supposed to do. It was a partial execution. The lecturer incharge assured that I will get good marks if the written programs are correct. They are correct as far as I know. The viva a terrible. The person seemed to have a lot of knowledge of the subject and she wanted to show it to the students!
I thought of taking a short nap in the evening and as it was very disturbed, I had to pull it uptill 8:15 pm. I opened the Micro Processor Lab's file and I felt that I can do it prtetty easily. I am afraid of the viva again. I have to perfect myself with 4 programs and revise the others.
I thought of taking a short nap in the evening and as it was very disturbed, I had to pull it uptill 8:15 pm. I opened the Micro Processor Lab's file and I felt that I can do it prtetty easily. I am afraid of the viva again. I have to perfect myself with 4 programs and revise the others.
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
We are more than 30 ... wow!
I woke up late in the morning, it was almost 12. I spent almost the complete day on the internet. Just took a 2 hour 'nap' in the evening and some time off during dinner. I was a day wasted ... I had thought of studying but my laziness prevented me from doing it.
The weather today was splendid. Though the low temprature forced me to close the window in the living room, I still enjoyed the cool air. I wish I had gone to some outing today; probably to a place like Necklace road. I remember the last time when it was raining and I went there with my friends. That day we had played 'truth n dare' there!
On Monday my mother had some hearing of the enquiry that has been going on her relating to some involment of her deputy in a scam that could have happened! It more than a year now and the thing has not been solved. Yesterday my mother was just asked to give few things in writing. The enquiry officer is my mother's colleague and he knows thats its just a kind of formality that my mother has been dragged into this. Her deputy has already been suspended. Though everybody knows that my mother has nothing to do with the case, the official procedures require all this crap. Just because of this my mother can't leave the country. A few days back I saw my mother upset as she had decided to perform an 'Umrah' and she is not able to do it. She has been waiting for the no objection ceritifcate from her office and they don't give him because she has not been proved innocent till now. This is what our government rules are upto - the criminals never face anything and those who face are the ones who never do anything wrong!
A couple of days back another cousin of mine took an admission in a university in Kyrgyzstan. I already have a cousin brother studying there. My cousin sister (who has taken the admission) lives in United States. As its well know that the education there is too expensive and becoming a doctor especially takes many years of hard work and patience, she has decided to come here. Here, in this Central Asian country, she can comeplete her doctorate in 5 years. Her brother, back in Houston, has completed his pre-medicine and is precaring for the entrance that will get him a seat in a medical college. InshAllah he will make it through.
I, along with a cousin brother from Deccan College, will be the first engineer from the 30+ cousins form my father's side. The same is the case from my mother's side too! I have never met 2 from this 30+ group. They are my father's eldest brother's children and they live in France. In fact I have never met my uncle too!
The weather today was splendid. Though the low temprature forced me to close the window in the living room, I still enjoyed the cool air. I wish I had gone to some outing today; probably to a place like Necklace road. I remember the last time when it was raining and I went there with my friends. That day we had played 'truth n dare' there!
On Monday my mother had some hearing of the enquiry that has been going on her relating to some involment of her deputy in a scam that could have happened! It more than a year now and the thing has not been solved. Yesterday my mother was just asked to give few things in writing. The enquiry officer is my mother's colleague and he knows thats its just a kind of formality that my mother has been dragged into this. Her deputy has already been suspended. Though everybody knows that my mother has nothing to do with the case, the official procedures require all this crap. Just because of this my mother can't leave the country. A few days back I saw my mother upset as she had decided to perform an 'Umrah' and she is not able to do it. She has been waiting for the no objection ceritifcate from her office and they don't give him because she has not been proved innocent till now. This is what our government rules are upto - the criminals never face anything and those who face are the ones who never do anything wrong!
A couple of days back another cousin of mine took an admission in a university in Kyrgyzstan. I already have a cousin brother studying there. My cousin sister (who has taken the admission) lives in United States. As its well know that the education there is too expensive and becoming a doctor especially takes many years of hard work and patience, she has decided to come here. Here, in this Central Asian country, she can comeplete her doctorate in 5 years. Her brother, back in Houston, has completed his pre-medicine and is precaring for the entrance that will get him a seat in a medical college. InshAllah he will make it through.
I, along with a cousin brother from Deccan College, will be the first engineer from the 30+ cousins form my father's side. The same is the case from my mother's side too! I have never met 2 from this 30+ group. They are my father's eldest brother's children and they live in France. In fact I have never met my uncle too!
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