Sunday, December 17, 2006

Not getting time ... :D

Yesterday I was out all day with friends till 6:10 pm and then had the class at Career Launcher. After that I was at my aunt's house to join the discussion: how to go about with my cousin sister's marriage? It was something like distribution of responsibilities among ourselves. It was nice being there. I came home at 11:10 pm and slept at 2:15 am. I woke up at 8 in the morning and left for the class at CL. I had a test there and it was interesting! That's all about the till till now. I will write on that later :D ... I returned home around 1 pm and left with my parents for some work at 2:30 pm.

The work: I went out with my parents to distribute the invitation cards of my sister's wedding to some people we don't meet often. It was a nice experience with my parents inviting everybody personally. These people are usually the one whom we get to met once in a blue moon - at some weddings of distant relatives. I will write more on this. It was just my parents and me going around; my brother was at home studying.

I have my classes from tomorrow. I have a wedding party to attend today. And the reception is on Tuesday. It's the wedding of father's cousin's daughter. I am busy the whole week after that.

Friday, December 15, 2006

Allergy puts me on a hospital bed

I still have some swelling on the top of my left hand which was caused due to inserting the intravenous needle to inject glucose into me. Along with that I was given 3 injections just in the gap of very few seconds. Presently I am on medication to cure me of the allergy I had today morning.

Yesterday night I slept around 2:30 am. After fajar I had a few biscuits and peanuts as there was no bread at home. I slept after that but was awaken by some cough around 7 am. It was painful. I felt as if something, probably mucous, had filled my lungs and whenever I coughed, it gave me severe pain in the chest. I simply couldn't endure it though I lay on the bed for sometime. Then I had to slip out of the bed and have some cough syrup. This was the first time I had such cough and I am never going to forget it.

But this was not enough. In a few minutes I began seeing some rashes on my left arm. They were something like boils and were itching. It began with my left hand and spread all over my body. I felt like crying. I couldn't stop myself from scratching myself. My skin everywhere was red and had hardened due to the rashes. It was burning everywhere. I had to scratch even my hair and palms and there was no respite for more than 30 minutes. I am not exaggerating it.

I found it disgusting to be that way. I hated my skin for what it had turned into. I wasn't feeling like touching my own body but I had to - to scratch. Even when now I recall how I was feeling then, I have creeps all over my body and my hair straightens up. While scratching my right arm, I suddenly found some blood coming out of the skin. I somehow had to stop scratching. This was even more painful and all I could do was think of crying.

When I was in my 9th standard I once suffered from measles and it had fever going beyond 104 F. It was very bad and it had made me very week. Today it was worse. Along with the itching, I had some uncomfortable feeling in the stomach, pain in the chest, giddiness and breathlessnesses. I was feeling myself week too.

I asked my brother to get me avil tablets and a bottle of benardyl. He made 2 round and found no medical shop opened. My mother was initially a little busy with preparing lunch for my father. Then my father left asking me to take care of myself. I felt bad that he left. But he was getting late. My brother helped me a lot. At 9 am my mother got ready and he got an auto-rickshaw to house. Along with my mother I went to my father's aunt who is a doctor. She own a hospital at Nanal Nagar. After seeing me she immidiately asked the sister to give me those injections and put me on drip.

I remember, when I was in 7th standard I had pains in my shoulders. They were enough to keep me on bed for 2 full days. It was then that I had taken injection before today. Going back to that day, I can clearly recollect the way I was refusing to take any injection and was rolling on the floor crying. All this at my grandmother's (father's aunt) clinic. I feel embarrassed whenever I think of this or when my parents narrate this to anybody.

But today I was fine. It was painful only for a fraction of second and there was nothing after that. The IV needle was a bit uncomfortable. It didn't ache much; just that while inserting it into my skin I was like "sssss"! I felt some discomfort thinking about that more-than-half-inch thing into my skin!

For the first time n my live my blood pressure was checked. It was below normal and for that reason I had to be put on drip. It was 100 x 70. After the complete bottle was injected into me, it was 110/70 and this according to my grandmother is normal for me at that moment of time.

My eyes were swollen. My face had become heavier and I was not able to see things properly. My face looked like what Wills Smith looked in the movie 'Hitch' when he gets allergic to some food he has. Hehe ... but I am not kidding. I wish I could take a few pics of mine but I was busy with scratching. I once thought that I would be scratching myself to death - this reminded me of the movie 'Saw' ... kidding this time!

This was the worst ever thing I had ever felt physically. But alhamdulillah it was for a very short time. I was perfectly file while leaving the hospital at 11:20 am. I have been asked to restrain myself from having chicken, potatoes, brinjal, fish and eggs for 8 days. This is going to hit me hard - I eat 2 eggs almost daily, I eat chicken from outside frequently and with my cousin's wedding around here, I am going to miss everything. Just eating mutton is hopeless. I have to keep away from bananas too - I usually eat 2 to 3 a day!

My grandmother's hospital's name is National Hospital and Diagnostic Center. It was started by my grandfather. He expired 10 years back. Now, she and my father's cousin manage it. Most of us call her 'sweet aunty'. This is for quite a few reasons - her name is close to the word 'sweet' and of course she is very very sweet with her face, voice and the things she says. :)

At 1 pm a friend came to meet me. We were together till 3:10 pm then I slept again - I had already missed a lot of sleep.

Now, I am perfectly fine and it is as if nothing has happened to me. I can't believe I have seen this today. But thanks to Allah that it was simple and easy to cure. This thing being new, I was afraid that something very bad would happen. It was just some severe allergy. I do not know what caused it.

While in fajar I was just thinking to myself what I would be writing for this blog today. I got this thing to write on ... lols. Everything gives something. I am blessed - as always. Alhamdulillah. :)

Today I was supposed to workout for my shoulders and triceps. I will stay home and take rest. Just to take some rest - an excuse sometimes!!!

This was also the first time that I had to lye on a hospital bed. Actually the bed was in her clinic itself and I didn't have to go upstairs to the rooms. Lying there I imagined so many silly things. I was feeling sleepy to but I had to keep my wrist straight so was disturbed with the micro - naps I was getting.

Even falling ill attracts lot of attention from many people - relatives and friends. I don't lie such kind of importance given to me. It is enough that I am prayed for and all I do is just say JazakAllah Khairan.

My father just got the daily requirement of bread for me. It is packed in pink! :D

This day will soon be forgotten. But memories will remain - as things that happen for the first times. Many times happen for the first times in our lives and it is at times nice that they happen. They help learn more. I don't want anybody to feel what all I felt today. It was terrible.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Distance, respect and honor

I do not know when I am going to sleep today. It was at 4 am yesterday after I had a chat with a friend on several things. I woke up after 11:30 am and had a nap in the afternoon. Along with my breakfast I had "I,Robot" - I watched that movie. Yesterday I had left it after viewing the first 50 minutes.

I didn't do anything the rest of the day. My mother was here and she left for some work at 4:30 pm and my father came home at 5:50 pm. It was all boring until I was reminded that I had to go for my suit's trial. It struck me only when I heard my father's footsteps coming up home. I went to the gym early and left for the tailor at 8:30 pm. I called a friend and he accompanied me. I reached home at 9:45 pm and there was nobody home. My parents and my brother had gone out for some shopping. I waited outside with my friend.

My father didn't watch television today. Instead he sat with my brother in front of the computer watching Dhoom - 2. And for this reason I couldn't come online all this time. All evening it was my brother using the computer. He hardly used to spend anytime this way but I guess I need to safeguard a few things on my system which are stored openly everywhere. I just get the feeling that my computer is no more my private. It is not that my brother does anything other than playing some games (he is playing 'rise of nations' now a days), but still I need to be cautious. And of course, there is nothing for me to hide from him but I would not like him going through my files without knowledge! I have no problem in sharing my whole computer with anybody ... just that I need to know what is being seen!

So, today for the 3rd time I had to see this ridiculous movie - Dhoom 2. I had to sit there - living room is the place I spend most of my time.

It admit I am a bit excited about my new suit. I have had 4 of them till now - 2 black; but this is the first time I am getting one stitched. I do not know how it feels to have one stitched to perfection with exact fittings - exclusively made for me. There are of course many on the way!

Today my cousin came to visit us here along with my uncle and aunt. I wasn't home - had been to the gym. This is the second time in just one month that they were here at my house and I wasn't home. It's just a coincidence but I am really sad about that. She has left for Gulbarga again after leaving from house and will come back again in a day or 2. I wish Allah gives some very positive coincidences to make me happy. I have to talk to her ... just to feel that she is there as my support. She knows it!

I like it when somebody gives importance to me - and I know I am important when things are shared with me: things that are supposed to be kept under ones pillow. Allah has blessed me with such people but the distance always saddens me. And it keeps increasing. Not physical distance, but the distance between the conversations I have with these people. But the number of such people for me never increases. It even decreases at times. I know I sound weired but I mean all this!

Presently I feel a little lonely. It will change soon - in a few hours - as it always does. I am blessed.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Purr ...

I was already feeling too lazy to write for today. Yesterday I had not written anything in the evening though a little in the noon. After writing that, I left for my grandparents' house. I had no specific reason but I thought I could do some reading there. Staying at home is a bit distorting. There all I could read was around 20 pages. That's it!

Then my aunt had to collect some test reports from Vikram Diagnostics at Ameerpet. There were 2 CT scans my 8 year old cousin brother had undergone. I accompanied my aunt as it was late in the evening already. The reports were almost normal and everything is fine. After taking them we had to make a visit to a doctor. The clinic is at Banjara Hills. By the time I reached home, it was 9 pm. I rushed to the gym after that.

Today I started the 3-day routine at the gymnasium. Until now I was making some rounds of regular exercises just to get into the rhythm. Today I worked out for chest muscles and arms. I had to do them in a hurry as it was getting late and that place closes at 10 m. Tomorrow I will go for the lats routine. Then it would be for shoulders and triceps.

I am afraid that I may get too lazy again and become a fool enough to stop doing the workouts. I have done such a thing before - I went there for 6 months; irregular and in fully disturbed routines. I did make something out of it but it was lost pretty soon. InshAllah this time around I will be regular and make good progress.

Yesterday night I didn't sleep - of course I don't sleep at nights - I sleep early mornings. I went to bed at 4:15 am. This was after a long chat I had with a friend. It was great having that chat. I am glad I have a friend like that. I dread getting away from everybody once my engineering ends. I am already missing my friends - I do not know how I may feel once the left over 17 months get over. I still remember my first day to the college - it was a math class and I was late; I had to take the last seat but I was glad when people came even after me and sat behind me!

Today morning I woke up at 11 am but was in the bed till 11:30. My mother was asking me to get up every few minutes and that kept me awake. My mother is on a 10 day leave - she has taken the available privilege leave she gets at her office. She will be spending the time relaxing, taking my grandparents' for their medical check-ups, shopping and of course my sister's marriage.

My cousin sister is here now at Hyderabad. There is some function on 20th and the marriage is on 21st. The reception in Guntur is on 24th. I wonder how I will feel missing classes at college right in the first week.

After waking up I went along with my mother for some shopping. She wanted to buy a few things for herself for the wedding function. We were at Chandana Brothers, Ameerpet, for more than an hour. It was a tough time for me. She was constantly asking my opinions on the sarees she was selecting and I had to answer something just to keep her heart. But the sarees she bought had my consent! I had integrity in my words when I appreciated them ... :D It was an experience!

After that we went to my grandparents' house, spent some time there, and reached home just at the time of magrib. I didn't do much after that. I have been thinking of writing a few things but not getting the right motivation. I just need to start ... need to fight out my laziness and foolishness. Tomorrow I have to go for my suit's trial. I need to be there before 5 pm. I already don't feel like going... simply!

I don't feel like reviewing any of my posts for mistakes once I write them.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Bread and Butter


I was awake to 3 am in the morning. For the last few days I have been getting hungry after fajar so around 6 am I am having a few slices of bread with butter. This is just enough to keep things fine till 9 am. Hunger starts again. My meals and their timings have been messed up lately. I am worried about how things will go when colleges start.

Yesterday I was at home and didn't go anywhere during the day time. A few friends came to meet me in the afternoon and late night. I had a long chat wit a friend just before I went to bed. During the day time I uploaded around 65 pictures to flickr.com and hosted them their sot hat they can be put up in the wordpress blog my friend has now. A few more things are left to complete the procedure. Some irrelevant code form the posts needs to be deleted and this pics are to be categorized.

Today morning at 9:30 am 2 of my friends came to my house. I was sleeping when they came. They had been to a gym together just before coming. Something which I have been doing for the past one month!!! But I missed several days due to exams and other reasons including laziness. I have picked up the rhythm now and I can feel the changes within me. Some weeks back, in the title of one of my blog postings, I have mentioned that I am hiding something. This was what I was hiding - I simply didn't feel like telling about it to anybody.

Today, in sometime I will be leaving for my aunt's house. I want to read some book and I know I can't o it staying at home. Internet is a very big distraction to me and I can't stop myself from staying online especially when any of a few close friends are online.

Sunday, December 10, 2006

Sunday

In the morning I left home at 8:40 am for CL. I had the third class for Reading Comprehension. The night before I had hardly slept. I was at my cousin's place and came back home at 2 in the morning. I had just 4 slices of bread with butter in the morning and went to the class.

I has half asleep while reading those 6 passages. My reading speed was around 215 words per minute when it is supposed to be at least 400 words per minute. We have been assigned to read a book every 10 days and write a review on it and mail it to the in-charge. We wont' be allowed to attend the classes if don't do this. I wonder how I am going to keep with this!

I was very hungry while in the class. I had a burger and cool drink at McDonalds with my friend who is with me at CL. From there I went to my cousin's house again. In some minutes we left for the mosque. It was Alamgir Masjid at Shanti Nagar. It also had a very big grave yard. Even I am supposed to go there! I already had a discussion with my father on this. We have also decided to book our slots!!! :D

I saw the complete procedure of burying the dead body. I have seen it before several times. After that I went to visit my aunt's grave. Almost all my expired relatives are here in this place. I like spending time in this mosque. But unfortunately, it is pretty far from my house - 5 kilometers at least.

After coming home at 4 pm I slept for more than 3 hours. It was necessary for me. Even when I was at my grandparents' house I slept a for a little longer than usual. But it was not sufficient. That night I slept at 12!!!

I didn't do much after waking up. Just got some chicken for dinner and had a heavy meal. Even the lunch was heavy. It was at my cousin's house itself. It was simple 'khidchi', 'bagaara khaana' and 2 types of 'daal' along with 'tamaatey ki chutney'. It was cooked by many people at their respective homes and brought here. JazakAllah kahiran. JazakAllah kahiran for my cousin's friend too who helped us a lot. He did a lot more work than me.

Most probably tomorrow I won't have any disturbance at home. I will be alone. I will do some reading and sleep a little extra. I still don't know how I will be spending the day. I just hope I don't waste it sitting in front of the computer.

Saturday, December 9, 2006

Saturday

I came back from CL just around 20 minutes back and was planning a few things when my father got a call from his elder brother informing about the demise of my cousin's grandmother. She was the mother-in-law of my father's younger sister. She had cancer and was undergoing treatment at Indo-American Cancer Hospital. I will be leaving for my cousin's place in a few minutes. I may be there overnight as the funeral will be in fajar.

Earlier today one of my friends visited me and we did a few things for a blog he wanted to have. It is http://mjcc.wordpress.com . I had to do some uploading for that and I will be doing it when I get time tomorrow. I even ave my class tomorrow and I do not know how I will be managing things.

I completed the changes and the updating I had to make to Flowing Emotions. I had to add all the links and blog rolls. It too a lot of time as there was some error with the HTML codes that were making the blog appear in a weired way in IE 7. It was fine with Mozilla Firefox. I had to do a lot of experimenting with the codes. I even added Google META tags to 4 blogs. They will help me get higher page ranks and better placings in search results. I found these features under the webmaster tools from Google itself.

I didn't spend much time with the beta version of blogger I have just moved on to but what all I have seen till now is very nice. The dashboard has many details and direct access to some setting options is very well placed and designed. The time taken for the posts to get published has been reduced. This even helps in reducing some publishing errors that used to irritate me.