I prepared the notice on behalf of MJ Communique today and most probably tomorrow it will be on all the notice boards of CSE, IT and MCA. I hope we get a good response from the students. I have begun to like what I am doing :)
Yesterday I forgot to update the blog. I was awake till 12:15 am but it didn't strike me that I should be writing. I realized only after switching off the computer.
Today morning I reached college late by 30 minutes. I was afraid that sir wouldn't allow me into the lab but he did. I guess he saw that I was heavily sweating! I felt bad that I was late ... Probably it was something against my self-respect -- entering the class so late. Somehow I am fine. But all the while in the lab I wasn't feeling good - not because I was late - for something else. Simply. I had a 'low' time for 2 hours. I didn't do much in the lab except for what I had remembered sir teaching on Tuesday. Later when I met my friends, I felt better. Great actually. No doubt how much I need them.
I received my study material from CL through post yesterday. Things are piling up and I need to get working with them. I feel I would be fine with English and data interpretation; quantitative analysis would be the area I need to work hard.
Thursday, September 28, 2006
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Soya chunks!
Today perhaps I heard the most beautiful recitation of the Holy Quran in my life. There was also a moment where I almost had tears in my eyes hearing the Maulvi recite the holy verses. He is also an engineering student just a year elder to me. He has learnt the holy Quran in Saudi Arabia. I had always like listening to him in the prayers but he is getting better and better. JazakAllah.
I was a little late home today due to the unavailability of buses. I reached at 5:30 pm and till then my brother was already out to get the snacks. I handled the vegetables and milk part later in the evening.
Today when I opened the google videos page where the video 'ya ali' has been posted by my cousin, I found that there were already more than 100 visitors. I do not know how many have really seen the complete video. Mostly we, in India, do not hav fast internet connections; people from other countries, especially western, do have it. So, may be all the people abroad, who were sent the link have seen it. My aunt especially had asked me if she could share the video with her friends ... I was glad that she liked it.
But not everybody liked the idea. I undersand it was something connected to religion. But in general, that song itself is wrong. Music itself is incorrect. The song selected by my cousins could have well been some other one but 'ya ali' is one of the latest hits and any person who has listened to it on a good music system or with sub-woofers will know how amazing the bass is and how mesmerizing the beats are. We couldn't find any song much better than this. We hardly had thoughts of the word 'Ali' being used. The song was the focus, the music was the required thing, dance was just for entertainment ... If somebody has not liked what we have done then there are 2 questions for him/her- "did you listen to the lyrics of the song while watching the video? if so what did you understand?", "but I am sure you were more occupied with the dance because you were getting entertained!" Entertainment was the objective.
To be frank I don't appreciate my cousins or my brother doing anything like this. All this was done just for fun. I know it would have been better if fun was derived from something more decent and acceptable; I was the only one who wasn't interested in this act. All my cousins were. I gave in. If somebody sees the original video - the unedited one - he/she will hear my voice in that. My voice's sound was above the music's. I was the one shouting and telling my cousin and brother what kind of things to do and the way they should be done. So if at all any person has to take any responsibility of the video, then its me. If anyone has to take the credit, then its my cousins and my brother. Nothing more on this. I can't help if anybody is offended. The offended may write an complete blog in objection and post it in the open. There is no point in telling things being a coward.
Yesterday and today morning I had soya bean chunks. They were added to a curry prepared by my mother. These chunks were somewhat like nuggets. But they were completely vegetarian. They appeared like meat and also tasted almost the same. I like every piece I ate. There was no fat and no bone!
My friend has not started talking to me yet. We have confronted a lot in these 2 days but nothing more than that happened. Twice I was almost about to laugh looking at the reaction he had on his face when he saw me. Perhaps he will take more time.
Today's post is the 150th on this blog :)
I was a little late home today due to the unavailability of buses. I reached at 5:30 pm and till then my brother was already out to get the snacks. I handled the vegetables and milk part later in the evening.
Today when I opened the google videos page where the video 'ya ali' has been posted by my cousin, I found that there were already more than 100 visitors. I do not know how many have really seen the complete video. Mostly we, in India, do not hav fast internet connections; people from other countries, especially western, do have it. So, may be all the people abroad, who were sent the link have seen it. My aunt especially had asked me if she could share the video with her friends ... I was glad that she liked it.
But not everybody liked the idea. I undersand it was something connected to religion. But in general, that song itself is wrong. Music itself is incorrect. The song selected by my cousins could have well been some other one but 'ya ali' is one of the latest hits and any person who has listened to it on a good music system or with sub-woofers will know how amazing the bass is and how mesmerizing the beats are. We couldn't find any song much better than this. We hardly had thoughts of the word 'Ali' being used. The song was the focus, the music was the required thing, dance was just for entertainment ... If somebody has not liked what we have done then there are 2 questions for him/her- "did you listen to the lyrics of the song while watching the video? if so what did you understand?", "but I am sure you were more occupied with the dance because you were getting entertained!" Entertainment was the objective.
To be frank I don't appreciate my cousins or my brother doing anything like this. All this was done just for fun. I know it would have been better if fun was derived from something more decent and acceptable; I was the only one who wasn't interested in this act. All my cousins were. I gave in. If somebody sees the original video - the unedited one - he/she will hear my voice in that. My voice's sound was above the music's. I was the one shouting and telling my cousin and brother what kind of things to do and the way they should be done. So if at all any person has to take any responsibility of the video, then its me. If anyone has to take the credit, then its my cousins and my brother. Nothing more on this. I can't help if anybody is offended. The offended may write an complete blog in objection and post it in the open. There is no point in telling things being a coward.
Yesterday and today morning I had soya bean chunks. They were added to a curry prepared by my mother. These chunks were somewhat like nuggets. But they were completely vegetarian. They appeared like meat and also tasted almost the same. I like every piece I ate. There was no fat and no bone!
My friend has not started talking to me yet. We have confronted a lot in these 2 days but nothing more than that happened. Twice I was almost about to laugh looking at the reaction he had on his face when he saw me. Perhaps he will take more time.
Today's post is the 150th on this blog :)
Monday, September 25, 2006
The month of Ramdan
I went to bed around 11 pm yesterday. I remember getting up again at 11:20 to have some water. Then it was at 4:30 am when my mother woke me up. I had a heavy meal, prayed and slpet. I wanted to stay awake and read something but gave in to the luxury my bed was offering!
The first day of fasting was very much like other days. I thank God for making it easy for me. I reached home at 4:30 pm when he door was locked. I waited for my father for sometime, and when he came, I crashed out again. I asked my brother to wake me up at the call of Azaan but when I opened my eyes, even he was sleeping. I ran out to get snacks and Haleem. I prayed, and had the 'iftaar'.
Today I was asked to start working for MJ Communique. The article I had submitted made through and I will now be working as the editor of MJ Communique. I am definitely happy and I guess it is a kind of acknowledgement to what I have been doing all these days - my other articles, blogs, poems, letters! I hope to make myself even more better than what I am right now and I will live up to all the responsbilities I will be given. I am thankful to all my friends who have been encouraging me - especially 3 people who have read everything I have posted on my blogs till now and even more. I even thank my cousins and my aunt. If there was nobody to read my blogs, may be I might have stopped writing long back and would have never learnt what all I have till now. There is a long way to go - I choose a path less travelled; which is not even a bit promising unless I am several times better than those who are alreay at the threshold.
God willing for today I will start my taraveeh prayers. I didnt go yesterday. I wanted to have a friend of mine with me. He lives at Mehdipatnam and he is going to some other place. He has his other friends with him. I was thinking of going to some place where the Holy Quran is finished in 5 days. This is because I wont getting time later when I have my practical internals. I even have classes every Saturday. Anyways I will start with it near my house - will see if something feasible is there later. It is also a known thing that finishing The Holy Quran so fast is not good.
The first day of fasting was very much like other days. I thank God for making it easy for me. I reached home at 4:30 pm when he door was locked. I waited for my father for sometime, and when he came, I crashed out again. I asked my brother to wake me up at the call of Azaan but when I opened my eyes, even he was sleeping. I ran out to get snacks and Haleem. I prayed, and had the 'iftaar'.
Today I was asked to start working for MJ Communique. The article I had submitted made through and I will now be working as the editor of MJ Communique. I am definitely happy and I guess it is a kind of acknowledgement to what I have been doing all these days - my other articles, blogs, poems, letters! I hope to make myself even more better than what I am right now and I will live up to all the responsbilities I will be given. I am thankful to all my friends who have been encouraging me - especially 3 people who have read everything I have posted on my blogs till now and even more. I even thank my cousins and my aunt. If there was nobody to read my blogs, may be I might have stopped writing long back and would have never learnt what all I have till now. There is a long way to go - I choose a path less travelled; which is not even a bit promising unless I am several times better than those who are alreay at the threshold.
God willing for today I will start my taraveeh prayers. I didnt go yesterday. I wanted to have a friend of mine with me. He lives at Mehdipatnam and he is going to some other place. He has his other friends with him. I was thinking of going to some place where the Holy Quran is finished in 5 days. This is because I wont getting time later when I have my practical internals. I even have classes every Saturday. Anyways I will start with it near my house - will see if something feasible is there later. It is also a known thing that finishing The Holy Quran so fast is not good.
ALLAH IS MY GOD
I came back from Taraveeh prayers a little before 10 pm. I felt good after spending some tiem in the mosque. I was late for Ishaan prayers and had to pray by myself - not with the congregation.
While I was standing for the prayer, I felt some insect crawl on my right feet. I tried not to think about it but it was too much an irritation for me that I couldn't ignore it. I first thought it as a mosquito that would fly away after having some blood - I have allowed this happen many times. But it was more than that. It was crawling too slowly and was such a discomfort for me. I could see some people around who were shooing away the mosquitoes even while in prayers but I preferred not to do anything like that. Then suddenly the movement of the insect intensified. It wasn't moving around much but perhaps circling on my feet. For once I thought it had pierced into my skin and was moving beneath it. I somehow had a look at it. It was still on top. Then it started moving up and got onto the sleeve of my trouser. I was finally relieved. After the prayer I shrugged it away.
I had perhaps never mentioned the name 'Allah' before in this blog of mine. I have always been writng 'God'. I don't know what had stopped me but today suddenly I felt that I must have things clearly mentioned. Allah is my God.
The first part of today's post was written around 8:15 pm. This at 11:15 pm. ... an extention. :)
I am not reviewing or editing anything.
While I was standing for the prayer, I felt some insect crawl on my right feet. I tried not to think about it but it was too much an irritation for me that I couldn't ignore it. I first thought it as a mosquito that would fly away after having some blood - I have allowed this happen many times. But it was more than that. It was crawling too slowly and was such a discomfort for me. I could see some people around who were shooing away the mosquitoes even while in prayers but I preferred not to do anything like that. Then suddenly the movement of the insect intensified. It wasn't moving around much but perhaps circling on my feet. For once I thought it had pierced into my skin and was moving beneath it. I somehow had a look at it. It was still on top. Then it started moving up and got onto the sleeve of my trouser. I was finally relieved. After the prayer I shrugged it away.
I had perhaps never mentioned the name 'Allah' before in this blog of mine. I have always been writng 'God'. I don't know what had stopped me but today suddenly I felt that I must have things clearly mentioned. Allah is my God.
The first part of today's post was written around 8:15 pm. This at 11:15 pm. ... an extention. :)
I am not reviewing or editing anything.
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Snubbed!
3 o'clock in the morning yesterday, I was on my bed thinking. About many things ... I simply dont know wat made me think all that. I woke up at 7:30 am and was in the college a little before 10 am. I had the program till 1:15pm then a class till around 3 I guess. I left for my grandparents' house at 3:30pm from the college. Reached there at 4:20. Left at 5:40pm, reached CL 20 minutes late - was stuck in the traffic. I was back home at 9:20 pm.
It was a simple day with nothing much done but ---
1) A friend of mine said that he would never talk to me again. This was because I didnt wait for him while I was going to HOD to submit some form for a campus connect program. I dont know how much he meant it. I did feel bad when he said that but I am not sorry and I dont regret anything. Given that he has been irritating me a lot in the last few days, I think I did right by taking him easy. He is just showing some ego and I am sure he would be fine very soon. But till then I will miss him.
2) I was 20 minutes late at CL. Even last Saturday I was late due to rainfall. I felt bad for this. It wasnt any kind of embaracement, but still I felt guilty for going late ... felt disrespect for myself.
3) Many of my friend went for a movie and I didnt go. The first reason was definitely was that if I had been tot he movie, I would have gone to CL late. But anyways I went late ... it was decided by God. But still I felt glad that I didnt go!
4) Today I felt I am very alone. I dont know what made me feel this with so many nice people around me. I hated myself for this. I dont deserve anything good if I think this way. There is some fault with something and I need to identify that. Will take time.
The rest was fine. I was glad that I could meet my grandparents. My aunt prepared fried chicken for me. I told her that there was absolutely no need for her to take the pain to prepare that, but still she made it.
After now, for the last 2 hours, my wisdom teeth has been poking its pointed tip to my cheeck from inside. It giving some irritation. I hope I get used to it soon.
It was a simple day with nothing much done but ---
1) A friend of mine said that he would never talk to me again. This was because I didnt wait for him while I was going to HOD to submit some form for a campus connect program. I dont know how much he meant it. I did feel bad when he said that but I am not sorry and I dont regret anything. Given that he has been irritating me a lot in the last few days, I think I did right by taking him easy. He is just showing some ego and I am sure he would be fine very soon. But till then I will miss him.
2) I was 20 minutes late at CL. Even last Saturday I was late due to rainfall. I felt bad for this. It wasnt any kind of embaracement, but still I felt guilty for going late ... felt disrespect for myself.
3) Many of my friend went for a movie and I didnt go. The first reason was definitely was that if I had been tot he movie, I would have gone to CL late. But anyways I went late ... it was decided by God. But still I felt glad that I didnt go!
4) Today I felt I am very alone. I dont know what made me feel this with so many nice people around me. I hated myself for this. I dont deserve anything good if I think this way. There is some fault with something and I need to identify that. Will take time.
The rest was fine. I was glad that I could meet my grandparents. My aunt prepared fried chicken for me. I told her that there was absolutely no need for her to take the pain to prepare that, but still she made it.
After now, for the last 2 hours, my wisdom teeth has been poking its pointed tip to my cheeck from inside. It giving some irritation. I hope I get used to it soon.
Friday, September 22, 2006
Ya Ali song -Home made video
| Indian teens dancing to the famous ya ali song with the grave of Ali as the centre of attraction.This was shot for fun and would be worth a watch. ... Done by my cousins and brother! Its a work of comedy and fiction and there is no intention of hurting any sentiments. If any person feels offended, we are sorry for it but we don't regret anything! | |
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Say it
I was about to shut down my computer when I realised that I had not updated the blog.
I didnt attend the lab today morning as I was 30 minutes lates. I started late from home. I over slept. I slept late yesterday. I wasted my time. What more can I say?
I had soem nice chats with 2 of my friends today ... it was nice talking to them. Always makes me feel good after talking to sombody who is there to listen and talk back honestly.
I didnt attend the lab today morning as I was 30 minutes lates. I started late from home. I over slept. I slept late yesterday. I wasted my time. What more can I say?
I had soem nice chats with 2 of my friends today ... it was nice talking to them. Always makes me feel good after talking to sombody who is there to listen and talk back honestly.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
I need to take something more cold-specific!
For the last one week i have been suffering from cold. I cant say that I am suffering but still I am not perfectly fine with my throat, nose and voice. Mucous get accumilated in my throat and makes me feel uncomfortable. Sometimes it even makes my voice sould a little different. I am taking some cough syrup daily but I suppoose I need to take something more cold-specific!
In the evening after the college I went along with my friend s to 'Kababish'. We had grilled chcken there. We had a long discussion, in which I didnt participate, before deciding that we would be going to that place ... its a bit far from my house ... on the other side of the Musi River - Chaderghat. There was no grilled chicken available at the outlet on this side.
I attened all classes today and even the one of Data Communications. I tried alot to concentrate and hear everything sir was saying. I understood only one thing - Sir tells the name of the topic and the details of it; he hardly explains what the topic is all about. Forget about explaining the topic! Still I was there in the class and I felt glad that I wasnt bored of the lecture and didnt feel sleepy.
In the evening after the college I went along with my friend s to 'Kababish'. We had grilled chcken there. We had a long discussion, in which I didnt participate, before deciding that we would be going to that place ... its a bit far from my house ... on the other side of the Musi River - Chaderghat. There was no grilled chicken available at the outlet on this side.
I attened all classes today and even the one of Data Communications. I tried alot to concentrate and hear everything sir was saying. I understood only one thing - Sir tells the name of the topic and the details of it; he hardly explains what the topic is all about. Forget about explaining the topic! Still I was there in the class and I felt glad that I wasnt bored of the lecture and didnt feel sleepy.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Eat Street
I am finally done with the article that I would be submitting to compete for the post of editor to the MJ communique. I had to do a lot of thinking this time given that there was a limit of 250 words. Still I went beyond 325! All I hope is that nobody else writes anything better than this, and I am selected. God-willing.
Today I missed my first class - in the morning. It was because of the rain; it was raining too heavily near my house and as it was cold, I was feeling like staying inside the blanket for even longer. I started from home a little before 10 am and my father dropped me almost half way up to the college.
In the afternoon I didnt attend the scheduled lab. To the best of my knowledge nobody did. It would be too disturbing for me if I come to know that somebody has attended and attendance was taken. Already had such experiences before.
I went along with 7 friends of mine to Eat Street. We had quite a many things there - nuggets, burger, ice cream and some 'chaat'. Then we played 'Truth n Dare'. I can't explain how much fun it was. One of my friends went to 3 people individually and told them that he is mad - this was the dare given to him. Another friend went to a couple sitting nearby and asked them boldly "what are you doing here?" Perhaps they understood that we were just playing and they were fine. He even took a pic of their's using their cell phone. Another friend went and asked the name of some girl sitting a little far away. I laughed a lot today.
I reached home at 5:30 pm. I had some of the lunch I had taken to college and then a chicken roll as my dinner. I dont know but I think I will eat something more before getting to sleep.
Just after we returned from Eat Street to the college, one of my friends forcibly took some money from me ('some' would be less actually; it was more than some). He, and another friend, held me tightly, put a hand into my pocket and took out my wallet. It was like being robbed. As far as the money was concerned I didnt mind anything, but I didnt like the way they took it from me. I was made useless by the force they had put on me! It could have been done in much better ways. I will talk to him tomorrow about this and will tell him that I didnt like it. I am sure he didnt mean to hurt me. He is my friend - I dont think I am hurt - just thatI didnt like it.
Today I missed my first class - in the morning. It was because of the rain; it was raining too heavily near my house and as it was cold, I was feeling like staying inside the blanket for even longer. I started from home a little before 10 am and my father dropped me almost half way up to the college.
In the afternoon I didnt attend the scheduled lab. To the best of my knowledge nobody did. It would be too disturbing for me if I come to know that somebody has attended and attendance was taken. Already had such experiences before.
I went along with 7 friends of mine to Eat Street. We had quite a many things there - nuggets, burger, ice cream and some 'chaat'. Then we played 'Truth n Dare'. I can't explain how much fun it was. One of my friends went to 3 people individually and told them that he is mad - this was the dare given to him. Another friend went to a couple sitting nearby and asked them boldly "what are you doing here?" Perhaps they understood that we were just playing and they were fine. He even took a pic of their's using their cell phone. Another friend went and asked the name of some girl sitting a little far away. I laughed a lot today.
I reached home at 5:30 pm. I had some of the lunch I had taken to college and then a chicken roll as my dinner. I dont know but I think I will eat something more before getting to sleep.
Just after we returned from Eat Street to the college, one of my friends forcibly took some money from me ('some' would be less actually; it was more than some). He, and another friend, held me tightly, put a hand into my pocket and took out my wallet. It was like being robbed. As far as the money was concerned I didnt mind anything, but I didnt like the way they took it from me. I was made useless by the force they had put on me! It could have been done in much better ways. I will talk to him tomorrow about this and will tell him that I didnt like it. I am sure he didnt mean to hurt me. He is my friend - I dont think I am hurt - just thatI didnt like it.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Nothing much today
I had a class for English Usage today and it was equally good - like tomorrow. I came back home around 1 pm and after some snacks I jumped into bed to wake up at 3:30 pm I had my first proper meal of the day at 4 pm. After that I have been eating something or the other every now and then. Had lots of biryani too.
I the evening I did a lot of reading. I had to write some article for college and I was saerching for the right mood to happen to me. It did happen but it was too late. I will write something tomorrow. The biggest problem is that the word limit is 250 words!
I also had a chat with a friend where we discussed a lot on body language and facial expressions.
I the evening I did a lot of reading. I had to write some article for college and I was saerching for the right mood to happen to me. It did happen but it was too late. I will write something tomorrow. The biggest problem is that the word limit is 250 words!
I also had a chat with a friend where we discussed a lot on body language and facial expressions.
Saturday, September 16, 2006
Do not take life too seriously. You will never get out of it alive.
The title is a quote by Elbert Hubbard. I have subscribed to a newslatter from about.com and they keep sending me something interesting every week. This Saturday it was quotes by Elbert Hubbard.
I arrived home 9:10 pm today after the class at CL. It was about reading comprehension and it was one of the best classes I have attended till date. I have assessed my reading speed as 155 words per minute at that particular moment, with that particular mood, with those five 600 to 900 word essays. By the time I get ready to write CAT, I need to have my speed around 350 i guess. Even if it is not necessary, I know I can make it - I wnat to actually. Its a satisfaction in itself. I need to be more good at comprehension.
Evertime I attend some class at CL I feel as if I have dome something very significant - even when its a very small things. It makes me feel that I have spent some productive time - learnt something that will give me a better shape - even when its just something related to maths!
It was around 12:30 am in the morning (night) that I decided to attend the college to be there at the program being conducted for 29 Saturdays starting form today. We were not informed about this yesterday in the class but somehow I came to know that it was mandatory to attend and I attended. It is regarding campus interviews. We would be taught about how to get through the campus interviews and selection processes. Today we had lectures on GD and PI. We even had a mock GD and a mockPI. It is necessary that we all attend at least 20 of such Saturdays to be eligible for campus interviews.
I am seriously not interested in any campus placements but still I will try to attend as many of them I find possible for me. There is always something to learn even if I dont like what is being said or taught. At least I will learn to endure something I am not interested in. But I dont think I will find myself learning endurance in the lectures ... things like these have always excited me. Just that the purpose or the objective of this complete program is something I am not interested in!
I arrived home 9:10 pm today after the class at CL. It was about reading comprehension and it was one of the best classes I have attended till date. I have assessed my reading speed as 155 words per minute at that particular moment, with that particular mood, with those five 600 to 900 word essays. By the time I get ready to write CAT, I need to have my speed around 350 i guess. Even if it is not necessary, I know I can make it - I wnat to actually. Its a satisfaction in itself. I need to be more good at comprehension.
Evertime I attend some class at CL I feel as if I have dome something very significant - even when its a very small things. It makes me feel that I have spent some productive time - learnt something that will give me a better shape - even when its just something related to maths!
It was around 12:30 am in the morning (night) that I decided to attend the college to be there at the program being conducted for 29 Saturdays starting form today. We were not informed about this yesterday in the class but somehow I came to know that it was mandatory to attend and I attended. It is regarding campus interviews. We would be taught about how to get through the campus interviews and selection processes. Today we had lectures on GD and PI. We even had a mock GD and a mockPI. It is necessary that we all attend at least 20 of such Saturdays to be eligible for campus interviews.
I am seriously not interested in any campus placements but still I will try to attend as many of them I find possible for me. There is always something to learn even if I dont like what is being said or taught. At least I will learn to endure something I am not interested in. But I dont think I will find myself learning endurance in the lectures ... things like these have always excited me. Just that the purpose or the objective of this complete program is something I am not interested in!
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Here I am
I was thinking of some title for today's post and the song 'here I am' by Brian Adams started in the head phones which are in my ears now, so I thought of having this as the title - simply.
I had my dinner late today - actually sitting in front of the television. I watched some video related to network marketing by some very famous person working with Network21. It was real fun to see him speak along with a translator who was translating all his words and sentences in hindi. I havent finished with the full video yet; it is of 2 CDs and I have watched just 34 minutes of the first one. I have lost the patience to sit in front of the television for long even if it a very interesting show I got the CDs from my uncle.
I even completed one of my lab records tday. I was thinking that it would take me a lot of time for finishing but to my surprise i finished it in a little less than an hour. I was glad that it was finally over; if i had known that it was so small, then i would have finished it long back. It was my friend's record that gave me the essential help. I was listenign to music as I was writing.
Today I withdrew what I had sent 2 days back. I simply have no idea if that has made any difference but I am definitely feeling a little relieved that I wont be waiting for anything now. But still, I dont feel right about it. Will take some time for me to forget it. But i will forget it.
Perhaps a rejection would have made things easier for me.
I had my dinner late today - actually sitting in front of the television. I watched some video related to network marketing by some very famous person working with Network21. It was real fun to see him speak along with a translator who was translating all his words and sentences in hindi. I havent finished with the full video yet; it is of 2 CDs and I have watched just 34 minutes of the first one. I have lost the patience to sit in front of the television for long even if it a very interesting show I got the CDs from my uncle.
I even completed one of my lab records tday. I was thinking that it would take me a lot of time for finishing but to my surprise i finished it in a little less than an hour. I was glad that it was finally over; if i had known that it was so small, then i would have finished it long back. It was my friend's record that gave me the essential help. I was listenign to music as I was writing.
Today I withdrew what I had sent 2 days back. I simply have no idea if that has made any difference but I am definitely feeling a little relieved that I wont be waiting for anything now. But still, I dont feel right about it. Will take some time for me to forget it. But i will forget it.
Perhaps a rejection would have made things easier for me.
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