I do not know after how many months or years that I woke up at 8 am on a Sunday. I had to because there was a test I was supposed to write. It was conducted by a coaching institute for CAT and even this test was in lines with CAT. It was tough but I enjoyed going through the questions. I had seen CAT papers before but never with such seriousness. Later after the test I went to another institute to get the details of their coaching classes and programmes for CAT.
I reached home around 3 pm and had my lunch. I slept after that.
In the late evening, at 9:25 pm we left for a restaurant. This was a vegetarian one. Its new and my father wanted to check out the food there. Its at Masab Tank - The Taj Exclusive. I liked the food and the dinner was fine.
Yesterday I took a novel from my cousin - "Northern Lights". I just read the first few pages andf ound that its too simple a novel for me to read. But I will go ahead with the complete and finish it in the next few days. In a day or 2 I will update my other blog - Flowing Emotions. The next post will be titled as "The King and The King Maker".
This coming week I have 2 holidays and I hope to make something productive out of it. On one of the days my cousin ha promised to come over to my house and we plan to play some games on Playstation! On Saturday we were recollecting the days when we used to play Playstation a lot and there was this particular game 'Crash team racing' which was our favorite. We had a craze for these games and my favorites were 'Ace Combat 2&3' and 'Driver 2'. There were other interesting games like 'tekkan 4', 'NFS 4', 'Resident Evil', and some James Bond games. I remember spending hours in front of the television. My cousin and I intend to relive those days on Tuesday or Wednesday!
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Naive I was
I was about 20 minutes late for the movie. There was some misunderstanding about the timings and may be even if I had known the exact time, I might have had just not be able to make it on time. The movie was the lastest one by Shah Rukh Khan and I liked it a lot. Though I missed some part, it was not at all a difficulty for me in understanding. it was a bit of a serious movie and worth a watch.
Yesterday, after attending the wedding function I stayed at my aunt's house and spent some good time with my cousin who is here from Kyrgyzstan. We lay in the bedroom in the night in dark and began talking about our past days. The days when he used to live in Riyadh and come to India every year. Even my other cousins would visit India at that time of the year and we used to go out for picnics every Sunday. We would spend a lot of time together playing, shouting, enjoying. We recollected our visits to zoo, Srisailam and several other places.
Those days are gone and they will never come. My cousin will leave for some other country after his medicine in Kyrgyzstan and I will be somewhere else after some years. My other cousins will have their own way - USA of course. We may never be at one place again for years to come and there hardy seems any probability that we will get together again at one place, at one time. We had some serious talks in the night yesterday.
Before that we both went to Hi Tech city in the night itself. It was around 12 midnight when we were back home. It was mesmerising moving around in the night on the empty city roads.
In the last 10 days I feel I have learnt many new things and I feel glad about it. There were some big changes in my mindset and I realised how naive I was all this time. All this is basically because of my uncle and my sister. Even my elder cousin brother left a big mark on me. I am feeling better after a lot of time and I know this is here to continue. I am back to my prayers at their best again and this reminds me of my days a couple of years back.
Yesterday, after attending the wedding function I stayed at my aunt's house and spent some good time with my cousin who is here from Kyrgyzstan. We lay in the bedroom in the night in dark and began talking about our past days. The days when he used to live in Riyadh and come to India every year. Even my other cousins would visit India at that time of the year and we used to go out for picnics every Sunday. We would spend a lot of time together playing, shouting, enjoying. We recollected our visits to zoo, Srisailam and several other places.
Those days are gone and they will never come. My cousin will leave for some other country after his medicine in Kyrgyzstan and I will be somewhere else after some years. My other cousins will have their own way - USA of course. We may never be at one place again for years to come and there hardy seems any probability that we will get together again at one place, at one time. We had some serious talks in the night yesterday.
Before that we both went to Hi Tech city in the night itself. It was around 12 midnight when we were back home. It was mesmerising moving around in the night on the empty city roads.
In the last 10 days I feel I have learnt many new things and I feel glad about it. There were some big changes in my mindset and I realised how naive I was all this time. All this is basically because of my uncle and my sister. Even my elder cousin brother left a big mark on me. I am feeling better after a lot of time and I know this is here to continue. I am back to my prayers at their best again and this reminds me of my days a couple of years back.
Thursday, August 10, 2006
WTO and Stocks
Today was the third day that I drank a chocolate flavored drink - 'Horlicks'! I am drinking it just a few minutes before sleeping. My purpose is just to drink some milk and that I need to add semething to it - I am not going for coffee - I wanted to have just plain chocolate - but that was getting too plain, so I first thought of trying this thing 2 days back and I liked its taste. I didn't expect 'Horlicks' to taste this good!
Today I started reading an e-book on WTO. I read a few pages and liked it a lot. Then I read a short booklet, an e-book again, on stocks and stock markets. It was a small 13 pages thing and I enjoyed the information.
Tomorrow I have to attend a marriage function and my parents said they r in no mood to hang out this week. They have asked me to go with my othere cousines. So if I go tomorrow, I may miss an update here. I will b staying back at my aunt's place in the night.
Today I had my last class at 12:30 pm. Our lecturer was on leave and we were left free with no other lecturer interested in taking a class.
Today I started reading an e-book on WTO. I read a few pages and liked it a lot. Then I read a short booklet, an e-book again, on stocks and stock markets. It was a small 13 pages thing and I enjoyed the information.
Tomorrow I have to attend a marriage function and my parents said they r in no mood to hang out this week. They have asked me to go with my othere cousines. So if I go tomorrow, I may miss an update here. I will b staying back at my aunt's place in the night.
Today I had my last class at 12:30 pm. Our lecturer was on leave and we were left free with no other lecturer interested in taking a class.
Wednesday, August 9, 2006
It is ridiculous
It was nice being back at the college after 2 days of home. There were 3 straight theory classes and nothing much of interesting stuff in them to be discussed! In the evening I went to a theatre to buy tickets for a movie. Its on Saturday - a second Saturday for that matter - a holiday.
After coming home I slept for a couple of hours and thats the reason I am still awake. Its 11:30 pm already and from today I will start sleeping a little early. I will try to wake up early too!
Presently I have headphones on me and I guess I have finally learned to type with music still going on in my ears. Untill a few months back I always used to do some mistakes with the language while writing, but now its alright.
Today I still had some memories of the Sunday I spent with my cousines in the bus while going to Karimnagar; even my time in Karimnagar. It was like a special gap created in my routine that gave me a lot of happiness and some understanding of where I was going and where I am supposed to go. A very special thanx to 3 people - my uncle, my cousin brother and my cousin sister.
Whenever somebody says something good to us, we say that that person has made our day. Some years from now I am going to say that my cousin sister has made my life. She will always remain the best person in my life. (Its ridiculous, there are so many things that are to be done 'some years from now'. Such a shame on me)
Today my brother bought a radio home. He has got a new craze now. I hope he doesnt get carried away with that.
After coming home I slept for a couple of hours and thats the reason I am still awake. Its 11:30 pm already and from today I will start sleeping a little early. I will try to wake up early too!
Presently I have headphones on me and I guess I have finally learned to type with music still going on in my ears. Untill a few months back I always used to do some mistakes with the language while writing, but now its alright.
Today I still had some memories of the Sunday I spent with my cousines in the bus while going to Karimnagar; even my time in Karimnagar. It was like a special gap created in my routine that gave me a lot of happiness and some understanding of where I was going and where I am supposed to go. A very special thanx to 3 people - my uncle, my cousin brother and my cousin sister.
Whenever somebody says something good to us, we say that that person has made our day. Some years from now I am going to say that my cousin sister has made my life. She will always remain the best person in my life. (Its ridiculous, there are so many things that are to be done 'some years from now'. Such a shame on me)
Today my brother bought a radio home. He has got a new craze now. I hope he doesnt get carried away with that.
Tuesday, August 8, 2006
Money speaks. But when it is earned by you, it speaks louder
It was on August 2nd when I gave my last update. Its 6 days now after that. On 3rd it was my cousin sister's marriage in the evening and with my cousins I enjoyed every single moment. Contrary to the expectation, the function got over a little early - at 1:30 am. But it took a little more time for me to go to sleep. The next day though it was raining I went to he college at 12:30 pm. I had only 2 of my friends there and we stayed in the college till 2:30 pm. It was a friday and while performing the ablution I had removed my jacket. My shirt got wet and soon after the prayers I put on the jacket even while my shirt was wet. I suffered with fever till today morning.
The next day, Saturday, too it as raining and when I went to the college I found very few people and again there were no classes. I was back home by 12 noon. I went to my grangperants' house then. I spent the day without thinking much and trying not to wonder anything. I was fine.
Sunday morning I had to leave for Karimnagar to attend my cousin's reception. I woke up early, got ready and went to my uncle's house. It was from there that the hired bus was supposed to pick us up and take us to Karimnagar. I had almost all my cousins there except for a few who had to attend some other functions back in hyderabad.
More than half of the journey I sat alone in the bus. All my cousins and 2nd cousins were enjoying sitting in the back seats. They were shouting, singing, and enjoying the music that was being played. I didnt like to be with them and do all this. I found more happiness in being alone. Every now and then one of my cousins would come and sit beside me, ask me to come back, i would tell him that I would be there in some time, and he would leave. When Karimnaga was an hour away, we took a break at a dhaba. While getting
in my cousin sister asked me to come back. I was there with her and another cousin till the rest of the journey.
We finally reached Karimnagar at 7 pm and by the time we entered the function it was already 9:15 pm. I spent a lot of time with my cousin brother who is a doctor. He told me several things about medicine in India and all the malpractices by college managements and the pharmaceutical companies. He shared many of his experiences with me. I was overwhelmed to know all that. We had a good time together. After the photo session we went to see my sister's house in Karimnagar. We finally left Karimnagar and I reached my home at 6:10 am. That was Monday morning. I slept at 6:30 am and woke up at 1:10 pm. I had no chance of going to the college. I also had fever.
On my journey back home in the bus, I was with my sister. We were surrounded by all our cousins who were dancing, singing and trying to do everything they could. I had some very nice talks with her even with this noice going on. She told me several things. She made me realise several things. She always makes me feel nice whenever we talk. Now she is back in Gulbarga. She is busy with her internship of BDS.
I didn't go to the college even today. I was feeling weak and my mother insisted that I should take rest. I spent most of the time sleeping.
When I gave my last posting here, I had forgotten that there are many people who are reading it. Many of my cousins read it and asked me what had happened that day. I called myself a 'moody idiot' and everybody understood in some worng context - not in the one I had intended to call myself that. There are things I can't expect them to understand, and there are things i don't want them to understand. I am better off unclear with all this. But when things go closer to speculation, I need to be a little cautious. I guess I will think twice before I write anything on this blog from now on!
When I was sitting alone in the bus on Sunday, and was not coming back to sit with my cuzns, they all started shouting 'blogger'. At first I didn't understand what they were doing. When I understood that it is 'blogger' they were shouting, I froze, and kept quiet. Somebody shouted 'he is not understanding', and they all stopped. I was relieved. But I felt nice in a way :D
This picture was taken by my brother. He fell in love with my forehead. There are few more pics that were taken last week on my family blog. The ones taken in Karimnagar will be posted soon.
The next day, Saturday, too it as raining and when I went to the college I found very few people and again there were no classes. I was back home by 12 noon. I went to my grangperants' house then. I spent the day without thinking much and trying not to wonder anything. I was fine.
Sunday morning I had to leave for Karimnagar to attend my cousin's reception. I woke up early, got ready and went to my uncle's house. It was from there that the hired bus was supposed to pick us up and take us to Karimnagar. I had almost all my cousins there except for a few who had to attend some other functions back in hyderabad.
More than half of the journey I sat alone in the bus. All my cousins and 2nd cousins were enjoying sitting in the back seats. They were shouting, singing, and enjoying the music that was being played. I didnt like to be with them and do all this. I found more happiness in being alone. Every now and then one of my cousins would come and sit beside me, ask me to come back, i would tell him that I would be there in some time, and he would leave. When Karimnaga was an hour away, we took a break at a dhaba. While getting
in my cousin sister asked me to come back. I was there with her and another cousin till the rest of the journey.We finally reached Karimnagar at 7 pm and by the time we entered the function it was already 9:15 pm. I spent a lot of time with my cousin brother who is a doctor. He told me several things about medicine in India and all the malpractices by college managements and the pharmaceutical companies. He shared many of his experiences with me. I was overwhelmed to know all that. We had a good time together. After the photo session we went to see my sister's house in Karimnagar. We finally left Karimnagar and I reached my home at 6:10 am. That was Monday morning. I slept at 6:30 am and woke up at 1:10 pm. I had no chance of going to the college. I also had fever.
On my journey back home in the bus, I was with my sister. We were surrounded by all our cousins who were dancing, singing and trying to do everything they could. I had some very nice talks with her even with this noice going on. She told me several things. She made me realise several things. She always makes me feel nice whenever we talk. Now she is back in Gulbarga. She is busy with her internship of BDS.
I didn't go to the college even today. I was feeling weak and my mother insisted that I should take rest. I spent most of the time sleeping.
When I gave my last posting here, I had forgotten that there are many people who are reading it. Many of my cousins read it and asked me what had happened that day. I called myself a 'moody idiot' and everybody understood in some worng context - not in the one I had intended to call myself that. There are things I can't expect them to understand, and there are things i don't want them to understand. I am better off unclear with all this. But when things go closer to speculation, I need to be a little cautious. I guess I will think twice before I write anything on this blog from now on!
When I was sitting alone in the bus on Sunday, and was not coming back to sit with my cuzns, they all started shouting 'blogger'. At first I didn't understand what they were doing. When I understood that it is 'blogger' they were shouting, I froze, and kept quiet. Somebody shouted 'he is not understanding', and they all stopped. I was relieved. But I felt nice in a way :D
This picture was taken by my brother. He fell in love with my forehead. There are few more pics that were taken last week on my family blog. The ones taken in Karimnagar will be posted soon.
Wednesday, August 2, 2006
A moody idiot
When dinner was out, I was called by my parents to the drawing room - thats where it is being served now a days because everybody at home has found more enjoyment in a daily soap that starts at 10 than is staying quiet for sometime and having the food feeling together. I went to the room, took a plate, helped myself with all I wanted to eat, tok the plate out into the hall and sat in front of my computer to eat. My brother asked my father why I am not sitting with them - I answered back saying I don't want to watch anything that was going on in the television.
Then I thought of adjesting my system's subwoofer and for that I had to move the table a little. This created a 'screechy' noice. My mother shouted "what happened?" I calmly replied "nothing". Sheasked again. I didn't know how much of my voice was reaching her. I shouted out back aloud "nothing". I sat back on the chair. But my father came running to me. He was looking angry, and started scolding me for shouting so loud at my mother. He seemed to be very angry and my mood since evening began to talk with me - I was just thinking about it to myself - "please slap me father, no matter what the reason is. I want to be punished for everything I have done, felt or feeling, or have been through." I wanted to hurt myself physically and I wanted my father to do it for me.
After I had told him that it was thesecond time that I had to shout aloud cos my voice was not reaching, he turned back and walked away. It looked as if he was just trying to show some anger and he was not at all angry.
Now, the reason that I have written the above was just to show how I was feeling in the evening today. It has got nothing to do with my fahter. I just wanted somebody to hit me. It was a coincidence that my father got angry but even that didnt work for me. I wanted myself to be punished for several reasons. But I am fine now. I wrote a poem and read it several times. It made me feel better.
Somedays back I just asked myself why I was writing this blog. I go the answer immidiately - so that I can read it after a few years and laugh at myself - for obvious reasons so obvious that I cant put them here!
I really really wanted to update Flowing Emotions today - I had wanted it yesterday too. But I couldn't, actually I didn't. I have thought about a few things for this new post and I want it to materialise it soon. Tomorrow I have my sister's wedding to attend so even tomorrow I may not be able to do it. How much I wish I could write whenever I want - I always have to wait for the right inspiration and mood. I am turning into a moody idiot.
Then I thought of adjesting my system's subwoofer and for that I had to move the table a little. This created a 'screechy' noice. My mother shouted "what happened?" I calmly replied "nothing". Sheasked again. I didn't know how much of my voice was reaching her. I shouted out back aloud "nothing". I sat back on the chair. But my father came running to me. He was looking angry, and started scolding me for shouting so loud at my mother. He seemed to be very angry and my mood since evening began to talk with me - I was just thinking about it to myself - "please slap me father, no matter what the reason is. I want to be punished for everything I have done, felt or feeling, or have been through." I wanted to hurt myself physically and I wanted my father to do it for me.
After I had told him that it was thesecond time that I had to shout aloud cos my voice was not reaching, he turned back and walked away. It looked as if he was just trying to show some anger and he was not at all angry.
Now, the reason that I have written the above was just to show how I was feeling in the evening today. It has got nothing to do with my fahter. I just wanted somebody to hit me. It was a coincidence that my father got angry but even that didnt work for me. I wanted myself to be punished for several reasons. But I am fine now. I wrote a poem and read it several times. It made me feel better.
Somedays back I just asked myself why I was writing this blog. I go the answer immidiately - so that I can read it after a few years and laugh at myself - for obvious reasons so obvious that I cant put them here!
I really really wanted to update Flowing Emotions today - I had wanted it yesterday too. But I couldn't, actually I didn't. I have thought about a few things for this new post and I want it to materialise it soon. Tomorrow I have my sister's wedding to attend so even tomorrow I may not be able to do it. How much I wish I could write whenever I want - I always have to wait for the right inspiration and mood. I am turning into a moody idiot.
Tuesday, August 1, 2006
Monday, July 31, 2006
I am trying to be fank and I know it's of no use
Saturday I had been to college for only 2 reasons - to take some books from the library and pay my college fee. If I had some lively poems written on Gridlocked, then may be I would hav had another reason which would have been the most important one. But ther were only the 2 reasons - as clear as I know. No question about that.
Later in the evening on Saturday, when I came to know that the reason that would have stopped me from writing those poems on Gridlocked is at the place I had been before reaching the bus stand, I grew a little uncomfortable with yet another reason I am not clear with. Infact I am happy that I am unclear with it. Then later in the night I had a chat with my friend and may be if I had not had that chat, I would have spent Sunday feeling the same way - obfuscated. There was no concrete that was talked about, but it was just the sharing of how I was feeling that made me better.
Sunday evening I had to attend 2 functions. I spent less than 5 minutes at one of them and more than 5 hours at the other. It was my cousin sister's pre-marriage ceremony kind of thing and we all had a lot of time enjoying. I was amazing and though I expected myself to forget something, it was still there with me - though not visible on my face. I was fine. :)
The party finally ended at 3:30 am and I reached home a little before 4. I slept at 5 and woke up at 1 pm. I had stayed at my cousin's residence so I didn't go to the college. In the evening, wiht my cousins, I enjoyed making a spoof of a famous hindi song. It is a 4 and a half minute video we shot and after my cousing edits it, he will post it on the internet. I won't be ther on the screen anywhere - I was somewhat like assisting my cousin who was with the camera and also giving some directions. I shouted a lot and my thought was aching for something after that. I am eagerly waiting for my cousin to do the final work. We will try to put it on Google Videos. If things work, I will put it on my blog too.
After coming home today, I was again what I should not be. I tried to keep some things away from me and I am fine. I feel too weired writing this, but I can't help - I am trying to be fank and I know it's of no use.
My cousin's marriage is on 3rd and reception on 6th. The reception is in Karimnagar. So maybe again on next Monday I may not be going to the college. I wish I never had to miss any day there, but it seems to be very important for me to attend the function.
Later in the evening on Saturday, when I came to know that the reason that would have stopped me from writing those poems on Gridlocked is at the place I had been before reaching the bus stand, I grew a little uncomfortable with yet another reason I am not clear with. Infact I am happy that I am unclear with it. Then later in the night I had a chat with my friend and may be if I had not had that chat, I would have spent Sunday feeling the same way - obfuscated. There was no concrete that was talked about, but it was just the sharing of how I was feeling that made me better.
Sunday evening I had to attend 2 functions. I spent less than 5 minutes at one of them and more than 5 hours at the other. It was my cousin sister's pre-marriage ceremony kind of thing and we all had a lot of time enjoying. I was amazing and though I expected myself to forget something, it was still there with me - though not visible on my face. I was fine. :)
The party finally ended at 3:30 am and I reached home a little before 4. I slept at 5 and woke up at 1 pm. I had stayed at my cousin's residence so I didn't go to the college. In the evening, wiht my cousins, I enjoyed making a spoof of a famous hindi song. It is a 4 and a half minute video we shot and after my cousing edits it, he will post it on the internet. I won't be ther on the screen anywhere - I was somewhat like assisting my cousin who was with the camera and also giving some directions. I shouted a lot and my thought was aching for something after that. I am eagerly waiting for my cousin to do the final work. We will try to put it on Google Videos. If things work, I will put it on my blog too.
After coming home today, I was again what I should not be. I tried to keep some things away from me and I am fine. I feel too weired writing this, but I can't help - I am trying to be fank and I know it's of no use.
My cousin's marriage is on 3rd and reception on 6th. The reception is in Karimnagar. So maybe again on next Monday I may not be going to the college. I wish I never had to miss any day there, but it seems to be very important for me to attend the function.
Saturday, July 29, 2006
Friday, July 28, 2006
Alcohol content
I came back from a wedding function at 12 mdnight and though I was feeling a little sleepy I thought i should take sometime and update the blog. The dinner was again everything minus chicken. It was not something I liked, eating mutton this way, everyday is boring. I do not understand what is stopping people from eating chicken. Anyways I was happy to meet all my cousins there, even my cousin who lives in Gulbarga is here so we had a good time.
On Monday I have a test in DBMS but today evening I came to tknow that I have to attend 2 functions on Sunday - the reception of today's marriage ceremony and my cousin sister's pre-marriage ceramony where it is expected that the party to go on the whole night. I do not know wat exactly I must be doing because my sir said we have to write the test. I better talk to him tomorrow.
Tomorrw I have quite a few things to do. I have take books from the library, pay my college fees and also buy some text books. I even plan to go to my aunt's house in the afternoon. I hope I do everything I intend to.
Today I went to te college late, I was feeling abit sleepy in th morning and I decided to be fresh when I am at the college. While shaving my beard I got a small cut below my chin. It was more painful when I applied the aftershave lotion. It was fine afterwards. I used the aftershave which was confusing me with some other smells and reminding me of something I was not able to recollect! So today I decided that I should use the liquid so that I may finally find out how that perfume was related to something that was coming into my mind - but not fully. It was a kind of torture to me for the first few hours but later I think I got to recollect what it was reminding me of. I got so manythings into my mind and one of it was that the smell resembles to the smell of some wine my father's friend likes. I had smelled it a long back, but it was very strong. Aftershaves hav a lot more alcohol content than wine. Then I also found that its the same smell of Old Spice Lime aftershave.
I got an e-mail from my cousin in Houston - he said my uncle may not be coming to India as decided earlier. My cousin himself plans to come here next summer when he is done with his graduates degree and with his admission into Medicine studies. God-willing.
On Monday I have a test in DBMS but today evening I came to tknow that I have to attend 2 functions on Sunday - the reception of today's marriage ceremony and my cousin sister's pre-marriage ceramony where it is expected that the party to go on the whole night. I do not know wat exactly I must be doing because my sir said we have to write the test. I better talk to him tomorrow.
Tomorrw I have quite a few things to do. I have take books from the library, pay my college fees and also buy some text books. I even plan to go to my aunt's house in the afternoon. I hope I do everything I intend to.
Today I went to te college late, I was feeling abit sleepy in th morning and I decided to be fresh when I am at the college. While shaving my beard I got a small cut below my chin. It was more painful when I applied the aftershave lotion. It was fine afterwards. I used the aftershave which was confusing me with some other smells and reminding me of something I was not able to recollect! So today I decided that I should use the liquid so that I may finally find out how that perfume was related to something that was coming into my mind - but not fully. It was a kind of torture to me for the first few hours but later I think I got to recollect what it was reminding me of. I got so manythings into my mind and one of it was that the smell resembles to the smell of some wine my father's friend likes. I had smelled it a long back, but it was very strong. Aftershaves hav a lot more alcohol content than wine. Then I also found that its the same smell of Old Spice Lime aftershave.
I got an e-mail from my cousin in Houston - he said my uncle may not be coming to India as decided earlier. My cousin himself plans to come here next summer when he is done with his graduates degree and with his admission into Medicine studies. God-willing.
Thursday, July 27, 2006
huh!
Yesterday I simply couldn't post anything as my internet connection was down. I had written 3 poems and even while I was writing them I knew I was never going to post them. I wrote 10 pages of poetry and that included several lined I had taken down after listening to many songs. I will very soon compile them to get some poems that sound nice to me.
Today my cousin who lives in Riyadh came to meet us. We will be meeting tomorrow again at a wedding party. It was nice to see him after ore than a year. On August 3rd one of my cousin sisters is getting married and may be even my uncle who lives in Houston would be present with us. I have also heard that my French uncle too would come but I have been hearing such kind of things for the past 2 years. May be he is on his way to India and it is taking him a lot of time!
After my cousin left after meeting us, I am feeling something very serious with myself. It has nothing to do with my cousin. I had my lunch at 7 pm so I don't even feel like having my dinner now. I had thought of studying something today but even that seems to be impossible given that I am preferring feeling over thinking. It has been rightly said - it is much more easier to feel than to think. Perhaps an early-to-bed action would make me fresh tomorrow morning. In the evening I had chats with 2 of my friends adn though they were short, I felt very nice. Moods swing too fast - I always hate calling it mood swing but it sounds precision. But i guess it must be something else and I also suppose that I know what it is. I long for something and still wish that I don't long for it ... %^#@ ... huh!
I arrived home at 7 in the evening - thats when I sat down to have by lunch.
Yesterday after writing one of the 3 peoms I felt that I can't be so transparent openly. I need to keep a few things to myself. The 10% - 90% - ice berg personality must be followed. The second and the third peoms were somewhat better in terms of cheer and I will edit them and make them sound rhyming before I post them. That will take a while or even more than just a while. Only one of the 3 peoms was perfectly rhyming.
There seems to be some problem with blogger.com that it doesn't puts my posts in a proper paragraphed way.
Today my cousin who lives in Riyadh came to meet us. We will be meeting tomorrow again at a wedding party. It was nice to see him after ore than a year. On August 3rd one of my cousin sisters is getting married and may be even my uncle who lives in Houston would be present with us. I have also heard that my French uncle too would come but I have been hearing such kind of things for the past 2 years. May be he is on his way to India and it is taking him a lot of time!
After my cousin left after meeting us, I am feeling something very serious with myself. It has nothing to do with my cousin. I had my lunch at 7 pm so I don't even feel like having my dinner now. I had thought of studying something today but even that seems to be impossible given that I am preferring feeling over thinking. It has been rightly said - it is much more easier to feel than to think. Perhaps an early-to-bed action would make me fresh tomorrow morning. In the evening I had chats with 2 of my friends adn though they were short, I felt very nice. Moods swing too fast - I always hate calling it mood swing but it sounds precision. But i guess it must be something else and I also suppose that I know what it is. I long for something and still wish that I don't long for it ... %^#@ ... huh!
I arrived home at 7 in the evening - thats when I sat down to have by lunch.
Yesterday after writing one of the 3 peoms I felt that I can't be so transparent openly. I need to keep a few things to myself. The 10% - 90% - ice berg personality must be followed. The second and the third peoms were somewhat better in terms of cheer and I will edit them and make them sound rhyming before I post them. That will take a while or even more than just a while. Only one of the 3 peoms was perfectly rhyming.
There seems to be some problem with blogger.com that it doesn't puts my posts in a proper paragraphed way.
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