Today I spent 'some' time on the internet - finally! I didn't do anything much today, not even stressed myself for anything substantial. I gave a wash to the car and took a short drive but that didn't satisfy my longing to drive a car.

Today I even downloaded a few songs sent to me by my cousin some days back. They were lying in my inbox and I have them now on my computer's hard drive.

When you close your eyes you can see what you want to see

I am just back from a reception party. I had attended the marriage on Thursday. It was the marriage of my second cousin whom I never met. Precisely she also happens to be the dughter of my father's friend who by coincidence became a relative 21 years back. It was on Thursday that I took 'The Da Vinci Code' from my cousin. I had asked him to get the book for me from somewhere and he took it from his friend's sister. So, I had to return the book in a very short time. My memory was telling me that the reception was on Saturday so I gave full commitment to the book and finished it in a very short time. Later I recollected that I could have delayed the finish by another day. But I was happy I could do it so fast. Yesterday night I even packed up with the other book I was reading - 'Becoming A Person Of Influence'.

Next I wanted to read 'Nothing Lasts Forever' by Sydney Sheldon. But the first page I saw in that book was its last page - the epilog. My eyes fell on the sentence - "... Mallory was imprisoned for life...". I was sure I had destoyed all the pssible suspense. I won't read that book now. I started 'Emotional Intelligence'. It is a research work on human psychology and emotions. It is a good book.

I was searching for 'Personality Plus'. Today I had detailed discussions with my uncle at the party on people skills and he shared with me his life experiences - I shall write about them shortly. I enjoyed talking to him and he told me that he will give me 'Personality Plus' shortly.

The last few days I was totally cut off from the world around me. I just had the Holy Grail running in me! I enjoyed the book. I didn;t know I could finishe 489 pages in a little more than 2 days. It was Saturday on which I cou;ldn't continue the book in the morning, I had to wait till 3 pm, I was at a relative's house.

Int he last few days I passed by manythings in my mind but unfortunately I couldn't record them anywhere. I didn't update my blogs and so I missed writing my thoughts. I really felt bad that I had to skip few days of updates.

And by the way I had seen my 2nd year's 2nd semister's results. I got 71.58%. I was happpy seeing that I had passed in a subject I thought would let me down. In fact I got 20 marks more than the passing number. But still I h wished a better % ... I am very happy though. No regrets for what has passed. I have my ;life open in front of me.

Tuesday early morning an aunt of mine is coming to India. She is my father's younger sister and she lives in Mecca. I am desperately waiting to meet her and her family. Its always a month filled with lots of happiness when they are here. Meeting them itself gives me a lot of pleasure. My cousin sister who is 6 years of age has a good rapport with me. I remember last year when I would sit with her and helped her read her story books. She is really a fast learner and she reads words and sentenses which usually the children of her age are not expected to. She is amazing so are her other brothers and sister. My uncle is a fabulous human being.

On Saturday when I was at my grandparents' house reading the novel my cousins were continously with me in the drawing room where I wanted some silence. Once 2 of thm came to me fighting with eachother. One of them asked "am I the height that reaches your shoulder?" He reaches below my elbow when I stand. I was busy and I said "no". Both of them continued their fighting and went away. Then it was the less-than-4-years one. He was continuously playing on the sofa and I seldon paid any attention to him. Every few minutes he would sit on my legs, play with my hair, kiss me and run away. I was deep into the book - I had to return it shortly then!

My cold is still bugging me. I have completed my short course of antibiotics. Though my throat is fine, my nose isn't.

I am currently having a frenc beard. Every who meets me says that I look many years older than I am. I am not paying any attention to this comment but this is just a short time in which I thought of having this style. I have reduced the density of the hair today using the scissors and by the time my colleges start, it will be no more - most probably.

At 11:15 pm today, Saturday, I finished my date with 'The Da Vinci Code' which I had started at 12 midnight on Thursday - between Thursday and Friday. It was a continous rendezvous with the exceptions of deliberate breaks for prayers, meals, sleep, trips to nearby stores, trips to bathroom and a visit to my gransparents' residence. It was deviod of any disturbances through the telephone, the internet and any personal contacts with any outsiders.

Anything mild looks severe when we favor the effect

After a lot of 'yes' and 'no' I come out wiht my post of Flowing Emotions. And this time I am satisfied with what I have written - not like previous ones that had made me feel otherwise. A few days back I had posted a poem too on Gridlocked.

I wanted to write for Flowing Emotions but my cold prevented me from doing it. It was as if my brain was closed. Only one of my nostrils was staying open which was a big discomfort to me. It is a little similar even now but it is better than yesterday. I have been immidiately put on antibiotic medication and that has removed all taste from my tongue. I feel something bad in my mouth now. This will continue till I am done with the capsules.

I took up a big part of 'Becoming a Person of Influence' today. I expect me to complete tomorrow. I will start with the reading of a novel next. I am waiting for my cousin to get 'The Da Vinci Code' to me but if that doesnt happen in a day or two I will start 'Nothing Lasts Forever' by Sidney Sheldon. I have taken it from my aunt and I have to return it. Next (whenever it comes), I will go for 'Emotional Intelligence' by Daniel Goleman. I have read some pages from inbetween this book and things look pretty interesting.

Yesterday my medicines kept me sleeping for most of the time. The medicines for coled are usually mild sedatives. Anything mild looks severe when we favor the effect - here sleeping.

Immature Superhero Entertaining Immature Audience

When I woke up in the morning at 5 am I had a terrible cold. It was not that terrible but something was wrong in my throat and nose. I took a tablet and slept again. When I woke up again at 9:45 am I had to take another tablet. My mother asked me to feed the cold. I knew she was joking with me. I had some hot coffee afterward and ven now I can feel something uncomfortable in my throat. It is not exactly pain but it is irritating.

I had thought of writing for my blog in the early morning. But I guess I will have to wait for that till I am perfectly alright. I can't use put other efforts on myself as long as my throat is taking all of it.

Yesterday night (actually today very early morning) I slept at 2 am. It was nice to see that I slept immidiately after falling in the bed.

Earlier yesterday I had been to a movie. It promised to show me the first superhero if the Indian cinema. I was wondering why that superhero behaved childishly in the first half of the movie. According to me superheroes are supposed to be mature. But he was everything but that. It could have been a box office hit if it was not targetted at children. The worst part was the audience clapping at some of the stunts. Were they clapping at the superhero or his computerised stunts? Don't they know the whole world has seen better things in english movies and thi was just an immitaion of that? But this movie will definitely work, it has everything the 'Indian' audience wants - a hero (this time 'super'), a heroine, some (or many) songs, a vilian, beautiful locations, Singapore, stunts we can laugh at, and a happy ending!

Yesterday I had a very nice chat with my cousin. It was nice talking to him after a long time for a long time. We spoke about various things including my cousin's marriage in July. I was telling him why I don't want to attend any parties but still I am compelled to. He was shocked when I said this but later he too agreed with me and he said even he doesn't like to attend any but this time he willbecause it is our sister getting married. I hope everything goes out smoothly with nobody asking me questiong which I may not be able to answer with integrity.

It's 26ht today and I am left with 13 more holidays. I am glad I will be back there but I feel sorry for all the things I had planned to do but couldn't do. But this was for the first time I can say I didn't waste my days. In comparison to my past vacations, I have done a lot this time. These was probably the last time I had so many holidays, the next year I may be busy preparing or some tests.

Somedays back someone asked me about my plans after engineering. I said I will be persuing post-graduation in business administration - MBA. I was asked back in a manner that looked as though I was a fool in deciding that. I was asked why I won't be doing MS. The reason for this question, as stated by that person, was that this would give me a good job. I gave a small reply. I said I will do MBA beacuse I am interested in doing it.

When the first time I saw a computer when I was in kindergarten, at my mother's office, I had decided that I am going to learn to use it. Later in my 7th standard I decided that I shall do my engineering in Computers. After 2001 I was told by many people many times that computers were 'out'. I didn't listen because I was not for something that was 'in' or 'out' but for something I liked. I had no intentions of making a job out of computers for myself. I was interested in business management too.

I took computer sciences because I liked computers and I wanted to study them, not get a job. I will do MBA because I want to, not get a job. A job is secondary and my interests are primary. In the near future should I get a chance to lear more about journalism and arcitecture, I will do that too. Just to fullfill my interests and not to get a job. Right from my childhood I was told by my parents that I am studying for myself - not for the market (to become it's slave), and not for others' interests.

I waited for more than an hour waiting to get soemthing to write on with the blank screen in front of me. I got nothing. Actually I didn't feel like writing what I thought. So thoughts are really mad and foolish, this feeling was one among them. I will write tomorrow morning when I drive crazyness out of me!

A few days back in one of my updates in this space Ihad written the following -

"Today when I woke up at 12 I found no one at home. The main door was open and I was shocked to find that my brother who had not gone to his college today was not home. When he came back from his school ( thats what he said), where he had gone to take his certificates, I scolded him. He said he informed when I was sleeping and replied too!"

Today some one anonymous commentd on it saying it was bad of me scolding my brother. That person also said "no offence meant".

I have no idea who that person was but I can tell a lot about the mindset of his/her. But all I would like too say is that my father too was unhappy at mu brother later in the vening because of the same reason. I was not wrong in scolding him. He knows he should have awaken me completely before leaving. But as soon as the scolding was over everything was normal and we forgot everything.

Yesterday I went to my college. I had to take some signatures for my bus pass. It was raining and my friend and I were complete drenched. We enjoyed a lot. Later in the evening we found many ppl at the bus depot so we submitted the pass today. We met early in the morning at 8am. From there we went to meet another who was sleeping. We sepnt more than an hour with him. I didn't do anything much today. Tomorrow I will be going for a movie with mu couzns. I wil surely enjoy that.