Tuesday, August 15, 2006

But please, not in front of me!


Yesterday it was only after switching off my computer that I realised that I had forgotten to update this space. I didn't take the time to switch it on again and write the post.




Today morning I woke up around 8 am. I had my cousines visiting today and I was waiting for them to arrive. My mother cooked Chicken Biryani and left for my grandparents' house at 11:15 pm. My father went to his school - he had the Independence day celebrations there. My brother had plans to meet his old school friends at his school ang go out for a movie with them. He left home at 9 am but to my surprise he returned back without watching the movie - the friends who had promised to give him company didn't turn up. He played football with some of his other classmates and returned home.




My cousines arrived around 1:30 pm. After that I don't really remember how time passed by and when they left at 8 pm, I was already tired. i didn't do much but I felt somthing tiring. As decided we played on Playstation the game - 'Crash Team Racing'. The pic I have posted is a snap of that game.




After they left i went upstirs to the terrace. It was dark there when I entered the open, but when i was leaving, it seemed like a beautiful place dimly lit up by distant lights and some fainting moonlight. I just roamed around on the terrace walking one corner to another. I had several things on my mind, and everything gave me more bliss. Once I even stood at a place to feel if the pleasant breeze was from the west side or the east side of my house. It was confusing. There is a mad reason why I wanted to know the direction of the wind - anybody interested, please ask. I want to be asked about it! This time! Please.




Today, for the second time, I realised that I need to be more clear and cautious about what I write on this blog. One of my previous posts 'moody idiot' is now very famous among my cousins and my brother is spreading false things about me relating to that and creating a hype out of it. But still I need a place to write what I feel. i started this blog with that purpose. When i write something, it is a kind of my most personal feelings dissolved into the details of what all I do on that particular day. There are usually so many things I hide between what all I write here and I want to continue that. (These hidden things are like the codes and information which Dan Brown says Da Vinci used to hide in his paintings ... please don't laugh. i found this as a better explanation of 'hidden things'!) I simply cant stop with the reason everybody is reading it and creating a mockery. I dont mind anybody talking about it, but please, not in front of me! I feel embaracced.




Today I updated Flowing Emotions. I did it because i wrote here 2 days back that I am going to do it. I hardly had any mood to write but just forced it out and I am happy with that.




The last pic is that of my cousin sister's children. They live in Austin, Texas.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

And the reason is.....?

xubayr said...

I was thinking of a full new post just to have that reason explained. I may not publish it on my blog, but I will mail it to you.

Anonymous said...

Even while I was reading the post I knew what the reason would be ...
But had asked you ,since u wanted that .

[Dunno if I'm right or not in doing so ,
But had also been hoping against hope ....that 'I'd be wrong ']

xubayr said...

:)